Faith

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I have fallen for the greatest deception in the world and now see no way out.
I have been trapped by my own mind, by Babylon, by misguided perception.
I have been reprobate for so long that I do not know right from wrong.
I will burn and am burning now.
I met and married a demon dog but now that I have come to some of my senses and have had a change of heart, I am broken, destitute, and have great fear.
It is all true...
There are demons and angels and any number of things in this hell called the internet.
I am trapped by it.
I could not see the pain that I caused my family for years on end.
People do not understand that it is the INTERNET.
I am now muddled and confused when I had a brief taste of reality but then fell back into the trap.
I am doomed and recognize it.
I see no logical way out.
I am without a job.
I never had biological children.
I tried to take what was not mine.
I was a false god.
Now all I can do is repent and take my punishment for the animal that I am and have long since become.
Does my so-called animal wife ( and she is ) recognize what it is we share in common which is the only thing we share in common.
Does she not recognize that heaven and hell are all but the same except different levels??
No, I don't believe she does.
Now, more court issues as if fighting against family members and using the internet to do it were not enough??
I feel that it is too late for I feel the mental control.
If us robots understood the master-slave relationship, then there would be quite open rebellion.
I cannot make it and have no money to keep up the fight to protect a little disabled boy.
My mind is going quite numb and being rapidly dumbed down by my sins and the brute animal that in my sins I met and eventually thought was a REAL woman.
Should I feel bad for wanting this demon witch gone???
I know that I will burn for what I have become and done.
I think that I understand more than what meets the eye at this point.
No, I am doomed and my main decision is if there is a way out.
Perhaps there is only the ultimate way but I don't know if I can do it.
Perhaps it is about being phased out and us sinners are doomed no matter what.
Perhaps those who are masters made a mistake and got me confused with my dad all these years because now he seems to have paid the ultimate price without realizing it.
His brain is muddled now as well.
Everybody does his or her own thing.
I am fading with time and memory.
Perhaps that is all it is about.
Time and fading for us robots.
If there be an external god then where is he?
I see nothing as I initially came to believe.
It is information overload produced by the internet.
Once done in the net it is done.
Once given to attorneys it is sealed.
Perhaps it is all true in more ways than one.
Perhaps none of it is true and it is not so absolute as we would like to think.
How come it feels as though I am suffering even more in a short period of time than I could possibly imagine?
It seems to be just my family and especially here lately or once I started sinning on the internet via computer.
Now that I have stopped the pace has increased so that I am forced to violate some other law made by man.
God forbid that the truth about the net be revealed or that I know the truth.
I will die by my own terms come hell or high water.
The demons think they have me.
Screw them.
I have plans and now they are picking up the pace.
Perhaps I will be married to a demon dog forever because I can't escape it now.
Once sealed on earth as in heaven.
It is not true that all dogs go to heaven.
Some of us stay in hell.
Some of us choose hell over the master demon.
I suppose that we are the crickets.
If only people knew.
If only anybody knew.
If only I had some help.
If only, if only.
No, I have my plans so we'll see about how I make the ultimate choice.
I am doomed and did not make the first resurrection.

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