Christian Living

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As I lay here and think about God and what God is to me, I cry. As I look back over my life, I realize just how much I love God. It's not because of what He has done for me, but because he is God my creator and the one that have been with me throughout my whole life. When no one else was there, God was. When no one is here, God is. God I love you is my response to every thought. My eyes fill up with tears as I speak to God saying “Lord I love you. I love you for you and not for what you have done for me”!

When I was nine years old, I can remember another time that I was alone and was scared. My grand parents were gone to church one night and I was at home sick. I got up and washed the dishes, clean the kitchen to make my grandmother happy. My grandfather had killed a bird that day and I thought I would cook it and make him happy also. I had seen my grandmother cook quite often so I thought I could do it also. As I had seen her cooking chicken, fish, and birds for my grandfather all the time. The one thing I missed was the fact that the bird had to be gutted out and cleaned. I had washed the outside but the inside was what needed to be purged out. The inside was where the garbage was that corrupted the bird. After washing, cleaning and seasoning it I dipped it in the flour and dropped it in the hot grease. I was so happy and excited about telling them what I had accomplished while they were gone. To my surprise they were very happy, but I was suppose to gut the bird first. I knew it was stinky but I did not know why. When my grandmother cooked it, I didn't smell anything like that odor.

I went on the back porch and began to cry. After a minute I was scared because this great big creature stood in the pasture taller than the trees. As this monstrous looking thing began to speak to me I was afraid. He said “Margery fear not, I want you to remember that God will always be with you”. I ran into the house. When my grandmother came I told her what had happened and she said it was an Angel sent from God to comfort you. God did not want you to be scared. No one on the street had seen this other than me. When I sat at my grandmother feet that night, we read the Bible and prayed and she said that God will always be with me. When she lay on her bed dying sixteen years later she reminded me of what God had spoken to me that night through the Angel; “I want you to remember that God will always make a way for you”. With that she pushed me away and said she was tired and was ready to go home”. I knew she spoke of going to heaven and wanted me to let her go.

On this particular Sunday Alvin and I drove to New Roads to see her in the hospital. She had been in the hospital for six days and I drove up there every day to see her but on this day I asked Alvin to take me, I did not feel I should go alone. As we drove I saw a vision of my grandmother being covered with a sheet and at the same time I cried out, the back tire flew off the car. As Alvin got out of the car to get the tire, I began to pray. I said “God please let me see her alive one more time” and he granted me my wish. After Alvin got the tire back on the car and we proceeded on he asked me what happened. I told him of the vision and he said that probably was someone else and not my grandmother. Well when we arrived at the hospital, I saw the hurst backing up to the hospital just as I had seen in the vision. I began to cry and Alvin reminded me of my prayer and we went in. The person that died was the lady in the next room from my grandmother. She reached up to me and pulled me close to her and said “pray with me”. I did and afterwards was very weak. My grandmother's tongue was very very heavy and her eyes had been closed for two days but now she lay awake and alert. She talked to every body, children, grandchildren and great grandchildren. They had been told that she would not make it through the day and was surprised that she could talk to them when they came in or called on the telephone.

When we got ready to leave she told me that I would not see her here anymore. That Monday I did not go to the hospital because God had also told me that I would not see her alive again after that day on the highway; which was Sunday. We still try to manipulate God. That Tuesday I went to see her and sure enough the yellow hurst was there and this time they were there to pick up my grandmother. She had just died and I went up to her room and she was covered with a sheet as I had seen in the vision on that Sunday. I sat on the floor and cried; my grandmother was my mother. I went to my grandfather and hugged him. He said “well Paulley the old lady is gone”. We both cried. They had been married for over seventy years without ever being apart. He said he did not know what he would do without her. He died almost a year later. She died on January 27, 1983 and he died February 27, 1984. I loved them dearly. I use to be mad at my mother for leaving me with them after I was born until I was ten years old but I realize the spiritual connotations associated with me being with them. For whatever reason she left me with them, I realize that God wanted me there. I have a spiritual heritage because of that decision. What God allowed to be put into me was all of Him that she understood to teach me. I would not have gotten that spiritual realization that I received as a child with my mother.

As I lay here and think about God and all that He has done for me from the beginning of my life I realize the fight associated with my life. My mother and father were at that time worldly. For many years the Devil made me think that I was not wanted. The children at school teased me because I did not have a mother and father. Many things I suffered in life because of the cruelty associated with a kid's understanding. When people do not realize who it is among them they cause them to suffer undo pain.

God calls for me to exercise my prophetic functions. He wants me to speak forth to individuals and sometimes to a nation. God gives messages directly to me. He sends me among people to put words in their mouths enabling them to speak all that God commands them. It is I alone that maintain the authority of His words which He speaks to me. God speaks to His Prophets mouth to mouth. God called me a messenger at nine years old. I was a child speaking to the elderly what God wanted them to know. Every vision God ever gave me came to pass just as He showed it to me. I am inspired by God to do or speak and not man. God also communicate with me in dreams. The way man throw you around you would think you are being condemned for false teachings. But the Word is the Word no matter whose mouth it comes out of..

For four years it had been me and God all alone. The closer I got to God, the more he became to me. I am not alone anymore because God is there. Man we cannot depend on, spouses we cannot depend on, and children is not as reliable and dependent as we would like. God will always make a way for me. Many call me cursed, crazy, without understanding, and desperate for a man. All of this is so untrue. I am blessed rather I have money or not. I am blessed when my needs are met. I am blessed with all that I need to live in this world that is not my home. I am only here for God's specific use. Had it been my decision I would have went to heaven a long time ago. If anyone have a problem with me and who I am talk to God because everything God tells me to do I am doing.

It is better to anger man than God. It is better to obey God than man. It is better to fall in love with God than man. God has delivered me from many attacks of the enemy. The Devil has tried to kill me, he tried to render me helpless, and he tried to take my finance as a means for me to look to man. We are to trust God no matter what man thinks or say about us. They say, what they say, let them say. Philippians 4:13, I can do all things through Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19 but my God shall supply all of my need according to his riches and glory through Christ Jesus. Evil communication corrupt good manners. Whatsoever a man sows that shall he also reap. A tree is known by its fruit. If the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be seasoned? Are we uttering wholesome words? Are we predicting things that is true? Have we interfered with God plans and overstepped our bounds?

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