I was really meant for negligees and ballerina shoes.
As a child, I didnít act the way most girls do.
I didnít play with dolls or want to wear fancy dresses.
I liked my guns, GI Joe and to get in to messes.
I adored my dad. I thought my mom was a sis.
I really didnít want to be a miss.
Then it happened, so long ago.
It was a horrible act and an aching woe.
There was a violation of my womanhood
It never should have happened. It wasnít good.
I was left broken and felt all kinds of shame.
My soul began breaking off just to handle the pain.
This inborn plan was given by God,
I had to separate myself to forget it all.
So, they came out to help me do my life.
Some wanted husbands, one wanted a wife.
It was this one that caused me a lot of confusion.
I thought I had lost my mind or had a demonic intrusion.
The years went by. I learned to cope.
Yet, inside I had lost all hope.
I was a woman feeling like a man inside.
I know now, I was trying to hide.
The time came to deal with all the pain,
I had carried through this male ego state.
It was time for him to find his proper place within my soul.
Heíd still be there, but Iíd be whole.
So I thanked him for all he helped me through.
I knew something happened. I really felt new.
I took a deep breath. I heard my counselor pray.
Lord, we give you thanks for the work here today.
Now, I can be totally who I am suppose to be.
I can embrace my true femininity.
I feel so different deep inside.
Itís like I have become a butterfly.
The beauty God created is stirring within.
I feel like a little girl once again.
Lord, I am rejoicing in the woman I am for you.
Iíll put on ballerina shoes.
Iíll dance with grace before your throne.
I am no longer marred, broken or alone
I am willing for your plan.
You have my heart and my hand.
So, bring me a fine negligee to put on for the night.
I am no longer afraid. It is alright.
God, send me the man you want me to marry.
Please send him soon. No longer tarry.
I have been restored as a woman of truth.
I am meant for negligees and ballerina shoes.
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Teri. This is very heartfelt and honest. I have been looking out for you,wondering when your little heart is going to share God's message with us. I believe this piece has a message, esp. to all those afflicted with confused identities and emotions. Listen to Him, He speaks more than you could ever understand. And He has great plans for you, plans for your welfare and not for your destruction. So sis, put on your negligee and your ballerina shoes, your're about to claim his promises. I'm happy to see you around.