Through a very desperate time I came to know the Lord. I didn't know I could know Him intimately and personally. I didn't know how much God loved me until that day when I cried out to Him. I will never forget the love I felt from Him. It was the sweetest and most complete love I had ever known. I started crying for myself, for this poor lost person that I was. I could cry for other people but I could never cry for me. And I needed to. Thus started my healing and relationship that has lasted almost 40 years.