Encouragement

A brand new chapter of my life bye lesbian life

by S Mariah 
06/19/18
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Have you ever wondered how God can change a person's life?
I hope my real story can be of some sort of encouragement in your walk with God and never lose hope, my friends. I had a background of loving same sex and well my life has been on a roller coaster ride and not an easy one. But remember the Battle is the Lord's, not ours. Just rest in the Lord and let Him change you by His pace and way.

After I broke up with my ex boyfriend (my very first boyfriend ever), my life seemed to have gone downward again - drifted by so many wrong thoughts again and I blamed God for losing my ex boyfriend too. I did the very silly thing, blaming on God for everything that happened to me. Please refer back to my previous writing on how God granted me a real man to love in the past. 

Anyway, I have been there and done that, put the blame on God, then I repented, and rested in Him....learning to seek after Him but then many times I felt so troubled on the inside, for examples, reconnected to someone I fancied in the past (a girl friend)....just totally out of the blue that one of my girlfriends reconnected with me, and as you can imagine, I once again felt so trapped by the same sex tendency. I felt like going backward in my walk with God....felt so bad and condemned and more importantly, tempted to go back to my old way.

Thank God.....Thank God....during those times of temptation, God has found me a way out. Last year, I got someone referring me a good man and so we met up for a few times ....but I didn't feel anything special about him just yet. Early this year, he happened to confess about his feeling towards me and asking me to stay back in Melbourne with him and go nowhere. His genuine love for me touched my heart greatly and all those years I had been waiting for a bold and courageous just like him. Yes I was tempted by same sex again but deep down I was so longing for a real man - a man who is determined, firm, strong and courageous. '

I decided to stay on with him in Melbourne and see how we go about our relationship, the more that I get to know him, the more I realised he is actually the one that I have been waiting for. So i decided to throw off my past, and look past my old memories, cut all ties with girls and focus my heart only on this real man God has given me. I used to join dating site to meet guys but this time is so different, someone referred him to me, so it's not that I am trying to find him, but God put us together. 

We are engaged in May and we are planning for our wedding next year.

How I marvelled at the work of God, how I praised the Lord for this man.

Changes is possible in the Lord, are you willing to submit your life to him?
Are you willing to trust that He will give you the best?

Though I was tempted in my heart and mind, one time I decided to follow God no matter what, whether God destined me to live a single life or not, I gonna follow and love God....I sponsored two children and getting myself ready for staying single ....but God in His timing, He granted me the man after my own heart.....How good God really is.....He granted me the man I long for in His time, in His way.
Now my heart is solely fixed on Him because I know He is the special man God sent me.

I trust that He is a God sent.
I trust that.....

I've learnt to surrender my own will, my own way.....
I was so prepared to live a single life, I prayed so hard and asked God to strengthen me so that I can live a life for Him alone. Praise God....Praise God, He has granted me someone to love...a real man...a real caring man.

**Great News**

I have written my testimony book (in ebook, paperback and audiobook formats) selling on Amazon. [The She Completed in God] at https://www.amazon.com/She-Completed-God-recovered-transformation-ebook/dp/B08JLRG23X. On Spotify for audiobook: https://open.spotify.com/show/656MPGAj8veUmnKGhNKY6u

Feel free to check out my blog site too, https://s-mariah-writer.odoo.com

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