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Not alone

I don't want to cope, I don't want to deal
Trying to be strong has lost its appeal

So much on my mind, my head wants to explode
My heart is so heavy, i just want to let go

Filled with a rage that wants to break through
Bursting in Prayer is all I can do

Holding everything in, till I break all my seams
Creating another mess, for my Lord to clean

I hate this, I want to fix it all and be in control
But the burden has grown and its taken a toll

I thought I had this, and knew what was best
But alas, the Lord has presented His test

Of course, I want to choose to leave it at His Feet
But the burden is so big, I don't want to admit my defeat

I wanted to be strong and prove that I can
But God knows, I have yet to understand

That control and worry are one and the same
Tearing me apart, driving me insane

I Pray and the Lord sends me His comfort
From all my thoughts that make me suffer

The vicious cycle always finds its way back
Creating new ways to execute an attack

I am in an exhausting battle with all my troubles
Wishing God did not have to be pulled down in all my rubble

Deep down, I know He will gladly take care of me
But silly me, I try to hide all the commotion from Him to see

I want to spare my God from another fight
And fight this battle with all my might

It's silly, I know
To think I can do this alone

How many times have I done this before
Going to battle, for an endless war

Clearly I will never win
The battle of overwhelming sin

But in my rebellion, I try to think of a plan
Forgetting that I am already covered with the blood of the lamb

I want to make it up to Jesus, for all He has done
Not fully realizing, the battle He already won

He died for our sins, and created a path
For us to follow, in the aftermath

Leave your burdens at His feet, He says
He will comfort us, no matter the mess

So I close my eyes and let the emotions flow
And just like that, the calmness starts to grow

The war within myself is quieting down
I no longer feel like I am about to drown

My emotional plea has reached His ears
And His tender comfort, wiped away my tears

He embraces me in His love and holds me tight
Never letting me go, no matter the fight

I thank the Lord and fall to my knees
Knowing now, My God will never leave me

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