I have travelled the road of sin
that rocky rocky plan
where everything is uncertain
and dressed-up falsely grand!
I have yielded to temptations
over and over again
I have broken the ten commandments
for acceptance and for gain.
I have schemed and I have plotted
wheeled and dealed to get my way
and EVERYTIME I thought I'd won
I had only failed.
My burdens became heavier
no matter how HARD I tried
and I became so tired in my life
all I did was cry
but no one saw my secret tears
they only saw my smiles
my heart was broken
and deep inside my soul had died.
And so each day would find me
just going with the flow
while hoping things would get better
since I could fight no more.
But even though I felt tired and defeated
I STILL held onto sin
somehow I had to get my justice
vengeance was my will.
For ALL that I had sacrificed
and for ALL that it had cost
I had to get my pound of flesh
for ALL that I had lost...
and I was NOT going to walk away
neither would I be tossed!
Therefore I decided
to throw caution to the wind
this battle I was fighting
I was sure again to win.
But on that faithful evening
when evil should have struck
the course of sin was shifted
and once again I had lost.
Bewildered and frustrated
I hoped for another chance
but little did I know
nor cared to understand
that the Father took me off the road of sin
filled with rocky rocky plans.
The Father brought me to His house
and I entered through His gates
but I didn't go to worship
and I didn't go to pray
I didn't go to give Him thanks
and I didn't go to stay.
Week after week
God took me to His house
and I entered through His gates
but I didn't go to offer Him praise
and I did not go to stay.
Going was just something to pass the time.
I paid no attention.
I just sat there and told jokes and poked fun
at members of the congregation.
Once again I was smiling
and no one smelled my decay
this vengeance I was hiding
would HAVE to be repaid.
When will the service be over?
I needed to devise another plan
and I had better things to do
than to sit there
and listen to that "preacher-man"
Then one Sunday morning
as I sat there
longing to escape
I heard this question
(it was the ONLYTHING I heard throughout the entire sermon)
have you tried Jesus? Won't you give Him a try today?
heck, I said to myself, I have nothing left to lose!
so I stood-up with the congregation
and I tried HARD to pray.
Kneel down, said a small voice in my head.
Reluctantly, with my eyes still closed
I got down on bended knees
I was in the presence of Jesus!
He was standing there!
I was kneeling at His feet
and I was not afraid
it was just the two of us
no one else was there
I was in the presence of Jesus?!
and He was standing there
And so I began to tell Him
of how HARD I tried in my life
and of ALL the things I'd done
I even mentioned to Him ALL the places I had gone.
I'm coming to YOU now, Lord Jesus, and something MUST be done.
Jesus didn't rebuke me or reproach me He didn't even criticize
He simply uttered these words:
I have loved you from the beginning
but you kept-on putting your trust in "man"
and I have never failed you yet
I have always been standing here
Then somehow I knew the church service was over
and as I tried to stand
I became unsteady on my feet
and was given a helping hand
I was feeling rather dizzy
why?...I couldn't understand?
what was the cause of my drunkenness?
but no one seemed quite able to answer my question.
WITHIN THREE DAYS
I felt my burdens rolling away
there was a fresh wholesome newness in my soul
and EVERYTHING I was chasing
didn't matter to me anymore
I became enlightened
and I began to understand:
I was in my Saviour's Court
by His stripes He redeemed ME
He took my burdens away
and gave me one that was easy
with a yolk that was light, His Body
I was the worst of the very worst
I was filthy
but He washed me
and gave me His cup to drink
the Blood of the New Testament
which is shed for many
for the remission of sins.
I am a Christian
being taught by my Saviour.
I am happy in my Father's Kingdom
and freely doing His Will on earth.
My Saviour's words live inside me
He is showing me the way
and whenever I go to worship
I enter into His gates with thanksgiving
and into His court with praise
I am thankful unto Him
and I continually bless His name
for the Lord is good unto me
He showed me His mercy
and His truth will endure with me forever.
HAVE YOU TRIED JESUS? WON'T YOU GIVE HIM A TRY TODAY?
My testimony is one of the greatest weapons my Lord has given me as a Christian. It reminds me of where I'm coming from and it helps to keep me on the straight and narrow path. It is not for sale however it is free to share.
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Jean, this is powerful! Great job! I noticed you said, "I have nothing left to loose." Did you mean that? Because it is really true whether it is lose or loose, isn't it? God was loosening the bonds that were holding you!! God bless you for your transparency!