Born the middle child I felt like I was not part of my family. My mother used make me feel that everything I did was wrong.I was always trying to please everyone and behind my back I swore people were calling me a failure behind my back. I never got over that feeling and as an adult I think I smothered my children. I tell them all the time that I am proud of them but at night I am on my knees praying that my children will pass tests or be picked for some sport. I don't want them to ever think that they are failures and I don't used that word in my vocabulary at all. my children are getting older and are bound to fail at something and they will probably get over it as for me I will probably be the one who has a nervous break down!