The Official Writing Challenge
BACK TO
CHALLENGE
MAIN
INSTRUCTIONS
how it works
submission rules
guidelines for
choosing a level
ENTRIES
submit your entry
read current entries
read past entries
challenge winners
Our Daily Devotional HERE
Place it on your site or
receive it daily by email.


TRUST JESUS TODAY

  • Share
  • how it works
  • Submit
Previous Challenge Entry (Level 3 - Advanced)
Topic: Empty and Full (06/04/09)
Contestants on the game show, “Who Wants to be a Millionaire?” are frequently asked “Is that your final answer?”

Painful events years ago brought me to a place where today I’m more than a millionaire and I’ve given my final answer. Back then it was the game show of life that was jerking my emotions violently and the resulting anger got directed at God. The sorrow upon sorrow I experienced was so great that I avoided church entirely. It was just easier to stay away than to sit in the pew and weep.

What sort of emotional and spiritual tailspin could cause me to intentionally close my Bible and push it away for weeks, for months even? In a nutshell, three miscarriages within a time span of 15 months, coupled with the God-enabled purchase of a four-bedroom house that fueled my expectation that God was intending to give a little brother or sister to our 5-year old daughter.

So now here I was in a spacious two-story home with no new baby. Was this God’s cruel joke on me? “Why doesn’t God just slay me?” I remember crying to a friend. “He is,” she wisely replied.

Coming to terms with major disappointment in God is a very personal journey, but for me I guess I slowly came to the realization that this world holds nothing for me. Psalm 73:25 asks, “Whom have I in heaven but You? And earth has nothing I desire besides you.” There was no other option. There was no plan B. I had been a Christian long enough to know that the Lord Jesus was and is the only and final answer to any crushing human disappointment that I could experience.

Yup. I was between a rock and a hard spot, all right. I was between THE Rock and the hard spot that was me. God had me right where He wanted me and by the grace of God, 17 years later I’m still standing. Not on a hard spot, but on the Rock Lord Jesus. On Christ the solid Rock I stand, all other ground is sinking sand.


And yes. That’s my final answer.
The opinions expressed by authors may not necessarily reflect the opinion of FaithWriters.com.
Accept Jesus as Your Lord and Savior Right Now - CLICK HERE
JOIN US at FaithWriters for Free. Grow as a Writer and Spread the Gospel.
This article has been read 1156 times
Member Comments
Member
Date
Glynis Becker
06/11/09
Great testimony. Thanks so much for sharing it! Seemed a little stretch for the topic but there is great wisdom in your words.
Beth LaBuff 
06/13/09
You've had quite a spiritual journey. When you thought your home was empty, it was God's grace that filled your heart instead. I enjoyed your game-show allusion!
Sharon Laughter
06/15/09
It is one of my faveorite themes - of how people recognize, admit, struggle and deal with anger toward God. Thanks for the peek.