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By Dot Hannah
01/13/15
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Intense Desire

January 13, 2015

I rushed out of church briskly into the sting of the cold, dreary, wet, winter day, my feet like blocks of ice. It had been another typical worship service. My pastor had preached an anointed message from the Word of God, and I realized I was guilty of a fervent lust. It was a lust I did not wish to be delivered of, for I felt like it kept me going. There were no questions about my purpose in this life from God’s perspective. I was to live in such a way as to bring glory to Him, spiritually preparing myself for eternity and persuading others to do so, not to become encased in a moldy religious crust. But this did not curtail my tremendous eagerness, longing, and yearning for my habitual lust. My innermost spirit spontaneously yearned for it.

My lovely daughter and her entire family were absent from church on this particular Sunday. They were all home sick with the flu. I was so saddened by this, yet, comforted by my lust. I knew there would be fresh battles when I arrived home, just as always. I awakened every day with numerous, pathetic, human problems which aggravated me to no end. I felt like I spent my entire life putting out fires, as quickly as one was out, another popped up. My lust allowed me to escape these irritations, like the healing of an ugly sore and actually gave me marvelous hope.

The news on the television paraded its usual depressing events. A hateful, venomous father had thrown his five year old daughter over a bridge into a river. Terrorists had viciously murdered eleven journalists and a police officer in Paris. The reality of the evil, cold, unprecedented world I lived in was just reinforced in my mind. The change in values and attitude of countless individuals was an actuality, sprouting like spring leaves, but I found I could break free of this unpleasantness by the lighthearted joy of lusting.

I am a mother who still suffers from the empty nest syndrome, even though my children have been married and gone for years. As if peering in from an imaginary peep hole, my mind reminisces back to a scene with three, giggly girls running throughout the house with excitement mounting. My three grandsons were here last week during their Christmas break, but are several hundred miles away now, back home. How thrilling it was to have children here again. I found comfort from the loneliness of their departure, as I allowed my mind to be gratified by my lust.

An acquaintance had died the day before, and as I lusted for heaven, I was comforted as I reminded myself death would be no more. There was no lack of exhilaration when I tried to comprehend this, it boggled my finite mind. So many loved ones had already slipped away, including those who had most molded my early life, my mama and daddy. I brought to mind that I would see them again. I reasoned how soon I believed it would be, as I sensed water building up behind the dam with all the end time events I witnessed occurring. I knew I was not the only Christian groaning and panting for a city whose maker and builder is God, and it is the reality of this warm place that causes unlikely men to seek a relationship with Christ.

This day my frame of dust was physically exhausted. I tried to imagine never being tired or weak again, as it will be in heaven. I knew I had assurance of this, just another perk to look forward too. However, no other promise exceeded being in the majestic presence of the unseen Force which stirred inside me. What would this be like, this gracious One who had shown long suffering mercy and incomparable love walking and talking with me, His existence evident to my every sense? There would be no more sickness, no more battles, no parting or loneliness, no evil and no death. I would not be of sound mind as a Christian if I didn’t gleefully lust for heaven.

“And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes, and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.” (Rev. 21:4) KJV

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