Seemingly out of nowhere, it hit! Saturday afternoon a dark, deep depression came over me. I was overwhelmed with sadness, crying, and felt like I being pressed down into a pit of quicksand. My head hurt. To relieve the physical symptoms, I drank a cup of coffee and took some aspirin.
Distraught, this problem needed immediate attention, so I texted my pastor. He empathized with my depression and understood why it was happening. Although it seemed to come on suddenly, my mentor and true friend explained that my depression did not come out of nowhere, but that my brokenness after being hurt was festering but now God revealed it, and I cried out to God for His help to deal with it.
God delivered me from the pit of depression in short order. Jesus healed my hurt.
I remember the lines from "What a Friend We Have in Jesus", an old hymn that touched me about four years ago after I had turned away from God and was broken, hurting.
"Oh, what peace we often forfeit
Oh, what needless pain we bare
All because we do not carry
Everything to God in prayer"
And the line "Jesus knows our every weakness" tells us that Christ is with his children. He understands our weakness and hurt. And he heals us
After I heard that song four years ago, this Prodigal Son came home. And I don't want to leave home again!
As bad as I felt on Saturday, I didn't go to the ER or even think about starting to see a shrink. I called on the pastor, who referred me to God. By Sunday, it was as if nothing had happened. I needed no anti-depressants, which I believe, in the long run, do more harm than good. As father of the Biblical Counseling movement Jay E Adams wrote in "How to Help People Change", drugs that allegedly resolve problems such as depression just mask the hurt. Depression is like the "check engine" light in your car that alerts you that something is wrong and has to be fixed.
I paid attention to the check engine light and was referred to the master mechanic to repair the problem. I can better see that the idea that God can handle our problems is not just theory; it's fact!
Of course, as with our cars, we need regular maintenance with God by praying, reading the Bible, singing praises and through individual worship and with the assembly of saints (going to church, etc.) "As iron sharpens iron, one person sharpens another." -Proverbs 27:17