Poetry

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You can compare the poem and its plain text as I decided to add it in for a more literal meaning to explain any symbols or metaphor used in the poem. Enjoy. =]


The questions piled up within me
As my watch stood there pointing three
In a dark room with a movie screen
I wondered how you had been

In my room waiting for my phone to ring
Time flies pass every second stings
If you hadn’t said goodnight
I just wouldn’t shut the lights

A wise one once told me to let go
But I cling on it and went with the flow
I should’ve known
What’s coming after me is after my soul

Trust is just a word you think
It is broken within a blink
Pieces of it in my heart it sinks
Nothing ahead but a broken link

But you must know
When the time comes I will go
Like in the dark room the movie ends
Our trust is only made pretend
When it is time I will sleep
I won’t wait
I won’t hesitate
My phone I left it far from my bed
Memories of you stored at the back of my head
Tonight I will stay in my dream instead

Because I don’t want to feel the pain
All this time there was nothing I gain
All I get was the calling of my name
And you screaming for help at the gate
I let you in but you confiscate
Every piece of me in my heart’s shade

I thought you chose to stay
But you had your games to play
In my heart I’d know you’ll stray
But who am I to have anything to say
Maybe misplacing trust is my price to pay
Tomorrow I shall make no same mistakes

Today I look up at the sky
The light has come to my eyes
The questions are now distant goodbyes
Waiting for you is just another nightmare’s lullaby
After all we had was a truthful lie



Plain text: I’m having doubts. It was three in the afternoon and we were watching a movie. I wondered what had you been up to lately. I waited for you to talk to me and every time you didn’t I was disappointed. If we did not have a closure, I could not sleep. Part of me told myself to let it go as it hurts. But I didn’t listen. I should’ve known the consequences will hurt me very deeply. To you, “trust” may be just a word. You may have good intentions but trust is easily broken. All is left in my heart is the good memories we had that had become a part of the past. Our future is empty because of broken trust. I’m letting you know that when it is time I will leave you. Everything has an ending. After knowing the truth, each time we meet seems like a charade. I don’t expect you to talk to me anymore. Our good memories I left it at the back of my mind. Tonight I will be in my own world once more. I don’t want to be hurt anymore. Our friendship seems like there’s no meaning. You came into my life and I let you in. The moment you step into my life, you had been very special to me and I shared all my secrets with you. But now I feel as if you had stolen them as I don’t trust you anymore. I thought you would stay by my side but you had your own motive and agenda. I knew from the beginning you would leave me and I was like playing with fire. But who am I to judge since it was my fault in trusting the wrong person. I shall try not to repeat the same mistakes again. Now that I know the truth, my doubts are gone. It feels like I just awaken from a nightmare of waiting for you to talk to me. After all, the trust we had was true at that moment but actually from a bigger perspective it was fake.

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