I will have joy. I am His begotten;
peace in His love, to worship so near.
He knows me now; I am not forgotten;
His love drives out, I have no fear.
But for now I'm the world's misbegotten
fear in their hate; the Lord is far away.
I'm in my flesh. The sin makes it rotten;
His word drives it out and makes me pray.
I'll have my brothers; fellowship so undaunted;
we have the Lord. His promise brought us near.
Unhindered love. We do not feel unwanted.
Worship without walls. Jesus is our cheer!
But for now I'm alone and separated;
it seems my trials no one else can know.
Pride seems to me so foolish and overrated;
my dissatisfaction makes me want to grow.
I'm with the Word, as close as I can be;
I need not leave; time has ceased to exist.
I see the Lord, with new eyes I can see;
I've gained far more than I could ever wish.
But for now I'm as close as I can be;
time flies so fast; where did the minutes go?
I see the Lord, as far as flesh can see;
as for the joy, none is left to show.
All these days are nothing but my guided steps;
trouble takes me there and almost makes me bow.
He knows my prayer, from hardened, bitter lips;
and I will see Him in time but for now.