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Topic: Peace (03/15/04)
TITLE: Finding Peace After The Storm
By Geraldine Solon
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Frustrated, angry, sad and disappointed……..This is what I felt 3 weeks ago after having a miscarriage. If you ask me, this is the exact opposite of peace. My husband and I had been planning to have a baby for a few months now so when I discovered I was pregnant, we were so thrilled. For that moment we were thankful that our prayers were answered and it was time to prepare for another addition to our family.
A week after discovering I was pregnant, I had a miscarriage and was hospitalized for 4 days due to an infection. I heard of this happening to other women, but I only realized how painful it is after happening to me. I have to agree that “When it rains, it pours.” I kept questioning God why did this happen to me and I couldn’t see the reason behind this. In my own understanding, I thought it was time to have a baby.
After having been confronted by pain, all I wanted to do was weep. I was needy and vulnerable towards my love ones and very depressed. After the situation, I conditioned myself to grieve for the loss and to let out the pain. It was indeed traumatic for all of us.
Days and weeks passed and my problem started to dissolve. I will never forget that fateful day while I was lying in the hospital bed. As I was so self-consumed with my situation, I realized that the lady beside me had just suffered a stroke. I witnessed for myself how difficult it must be for her especially since she was in her elder years.
I told myself “How could I be so shortsighted and just be preoccupied by my own problems when there is a whole world out there with difficult challenges being faced”. I must tell you that God opened my eyes at that very moment and revealed to me how to continue praising Him in the midst of my storm. He led my heart into feeling compassion for other people who are not as fortunate as I am.
My feelings of anger, sadness, disappointment and frustration had transformed into PEACE. God taught me to see life in a deeper level and offered me the calmness of His presence. He showed me the beauty of His grace and sublime love. God was present when this happened and He heard my cries of pain. He taught me to trust Him in times of pain and that He will never forsake me.
I know that God has a purpose and meaning for my life. He has transformed my pain into peace and has drawn me closer to my family. He revealed to me that when adversity comes, I should “Be still, and know that I am God” Psalm 46:10. His ways are not our ways and He knows what is best for us.
Tragedies can make or break you but indeed it will change you. When that happens you should allow yourself to grieve and be kind to yourself. No matter how difficult it is to fathom why it happens the essential thing to do is to accept that it happened. When you do this, you are laying your trust on God. There are a lot of things in life that we can not control and our life may not be the way we planned it to be but if you trust God then His peace will go beyond our understanding.
Life for me now is having God in control and being in tune with Him for His peace shall prevail in all storms. Adversity does happen, do not fight it but embrace it till it transforms into the wonderful world of PEACE.
Copyright © Geraldine Solon 2004