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I open the bag hanging from my wardrobe door and admire my shimmering ivory satin gown. I brush the soft netting of my veil to one side to get a closer look at the detail on my gown. Seeing is one thing, but touching its intricate embroidery makes it all feel that little bit more real, even though I'm terrified of marking it. A thousandth inspection temporarily reassures me that shoes, garter, tiara, purse and jewellery haven't gone walkabout. I take one more look at the pearl cross Danny gave me earlier today. I'm blown away that he gave me a family heirloom - a very tangible sign that I'm joining his family.
I pull back the pink patchwork quilt and turn out the light as I climb into bed, the same bed I've slept in nearly every night since being out of a cot. I try to sleep - I need to sleep- but every attempt brings a fresh wave of anxiety and what ifs surging through my brain.
I'm not worrying about minor disasters like the cake failing to appear. While that might be embarrassing, it won't matter long-term. But those huge, life-changing vows - the thought of those and all they entail sends chills down my spine. Tomorrow I'll be standing before Danny, God, my family and friends, not to mention my in-laws to be, pledging to love and cherish him until death parts us, come what may. I know I shouldn't catastrophise, but I can't help wondering how I can possibly live up to that standard. Can I, in good conscience, swear before God that I'll always love and honour Danny? I mean, what happens if Danny and I fall out with each other? Or, God forbid, one of us cheats on the other? No marriage is affair-proof; we witnessed the seemingly perfect marriage of two of our friends torn apart by lies and infidelity only last year. There are just so many things both within and outside our control. Will loving each other be enough to get us through?
Love - a short word, but with endless power. I feel my heart beating faster, just knowing I'll see him tomorrow. Every night when he leaves to go home, it's like half of me walks out of the door with him, leaving me incomplete - simple as that. I feel my heart beating faster, just knowing that when I see him at the altar tomorrow, all those goodbyes become a thing of the past. I remember the day he proposed. I could see in his eyes how desperately he was hoping and praying I'd give him the answer I gave. The peace I felt flooding through me told me I'd made the right decision too. And I feel at peace marrying Danny - I'm certain he's the right man for me - I'm just terrified I'm not going to be the wife he deserves.
I stop focussing on my fear of the future, enabling the simple truth that I love Danny and he loves me to shine clearer and brighter. I've been trusting in that love all through our relationship and our engagement. I need to trust that now and not my fears.
Thinking about trust takes me back to the two Scripture passages I read on the day I gave my life to Christ: that He would always be with me, and that He would send His Holy Spirit to be my helper and comforter. Reassured by His promises, the thought of making these vows before God becomes more of a source of comfort than terror. I have faith that He will give me whatever grace I need to not just live out but love out my commitment, and be the best wife I can be - the wife God made me to be.
As truth's quiet whisper silences what ifs' clamouring, moonlight beams penetrate the worn blinds and kiss my eyelids. Their peace radiates through my whole being. At last I settle down to sleep, knowing that all is well.
Scripture Matt 28:20
John 14:16
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This is a lovely story for the topic and portrays your MC's faith shining through in the end. I especially liked your descriptive wording in the end paragraph.
Nice entry for the contest. Blessing, LaVonne
God bless~