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By David Butler
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Day 1
Never expected this would happen.
Taking up a challenge issued by my Christian friend.
He claims that if I genuinely seek out this god of his, I’ll discover it/him for myself. Hmm…..and pigs fly.
Still, John’s too nice a guy to be abandoned to this restrictive and bigoted religion, so I’m playing along with his little charade to prove once and for all that he’s totally heading down a dead-end street. He’s sincere – very – but misguided.
Guess I owe it to him, after giving him a hard time for so long. He took it so well.
Wish I had the passion he has. There’s an inexplicable joy in him, no matter what goes wrong.
He insists that I prove that I’m making a genuine effort, so I’m starting this diary to document this interesting (but fruitless) journey.
Well, when he reads it after Day 10, he’ll realize that this whole religion thing is just a fantasy.
He’s also given me a bible to “assist” my “discovery”. Yeah. Right.
Well, it won’t do him any harm to be shown all the contradictions there as well.
Day 2
Swore that I would be totally honest about my feelings and logic in this exercise. Then I can look John in the face and declare that I’m authentic when I finally falsify his Christianity.
Okay, so it’s more difficult to do than I thought. Funny how the things we’ve been taught as fact can cloud our judgement.
Never thought my faith in evolution would wane, for instance.
Guess I thought since most scientists believe it, it must be true. John’s obviously looked into it, and his arguments are surprisingly cogent.
It shook me when I saw the impressive list of eminent scientists, past and present, who have rejected Darwinism.
Not that it proves that there IS a god. There’s sure to be an explanation to all the objections that creationists bring up.
Day 3
John keeps asking me if I’ve prayed that prayer yet.
Got a bit angry, telling him to get off my case.
Never rush into something like this.
I ask myself, though, why is it suddenly so scary?
It’s just speaking into the air at someone who aint there. Isn’t it?
Well, I’ll just read the Gospel of John (appropriate!) he bookmarked for me and see if anything happens.
Day 4
More discussions on evolution vs. the bible.
Gotta admit that the absence of transitional fossils is disturbing, especially when evolutionary scientists also admit it. Not to mention the findings by Dr Mary Schweitzer and others. She examined some <i>T. rex</i> bones, supposedly millions of years old, and found soft tissue! Blood vessels, blood cells and DNA! Scientists can’t believe it. Why does mainstream media ignore it? Are people just plain paranoid of facing facts?
Is there something to bible history after all?
Read all the gospels and the book of Acts through after that.
Much more absorbing than I expected. Nothing like any novel or even any legend I’ve studied.
Can’t be true though. People just don’t come back to life as dramatically as that.
Pointed out some of the variation in details of the four gospels. John answered, quite reasonably, that different witnesses will usually vary in minor detail or emphasise things others miss. Eliminates collusion.
He asked me to be honest about how I felt about the gospels – feelings, not opinions.
Had to admit I was drawn to the biblical Jesus. Can a man like that be a madman? Or a gross deceiver?
Would millions be martyred for an elaborate lie?
Day 5
Okay, here goes.
God, if you’re out there. Show me Yourself in a way that can’t be honestly contradicted.
Man, that was hard!
No zaps or angelic visitations as yet. Only a deep feeling of peace. That’s probably because I can now look John in the eye and say that I honestly did it, and nothing happened.
But where did conscience come from anyway? Is it just an evolutionary survival mechanism? I doubt it!
If this Jesus of the bible is real, I’d love to meet Him.
Maybe I’d ask a few questions, like: Why is there suffering in the world?
Day 6
Tears?? Feels like I’m being thoroughly washed on the inside.
Reading more about Jesus and this redemption thing, and I’m falling apart!
Nothing like the religion I grew up with.
Is that You, God, doing something inside me?
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