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Topic: WAIT (08/30/18)
TITLE: Why God?
By Janene Bever
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Here “it” comes! Like a pesky mosquito on a dark sleepless night, it intrudes its way in and robs us of our peace. “It” is that one word that most of us are oh so familiar with. The word is why. I suspect I didn’t have to say it. I’m guessing you already knew. That dreaded why question that leaves us frustrated, hoping against hope for an answer that seldom comes.
God invites us to ask questions of Him, to knock on the door repeatedly, to throw all our burdens and cares on Him. His yoke is easy and His burden light He assures us. And it’s so comforting to know that He’s always with us in times of struggle or loss.
My husband and I prayed fervently some years ago about whether or not to start a new business. Feeling assured that He had our backs on the venture, we waded in up to our necks and then took the plunge into deep, deeper and deepest waters. We hired employees, leased a building, formed a legal corporation and we faithfully tithed on our earnings. Also, we worked very hard. After a couple of years, the business went under. Why God?
In our early years of marriage we sold a house that had a lot of equity in it in order to invest in another one of much more value. We did pretty well on that house. Real estate was booming in the late 1990’s and early 2000’s so we bought a rental, we bought a couple of lots, we bought a few houses out of state and rented them out. All the way through this endeavor we prayed, we asked God’s blessing, we consulted with financial professionals.
Our dreams soared higher and higher. We could envision ourselves as well to do real estate developers, building a solid retirement income. We were just a couple of novices who had God’s wind at our sails. Those were exciting times. We taught Bible studies, attended church and I counseled women and couples at our home church. In 2009, we lost all of the properties including the beautiful home we lived in. The real estate bubble had burst. The construction industry suffered as well. Why God?
We ended up practically penniless, barely able to purchase a mobile home with the few thousand dollars we desperately managed to salvage. For the following few years our dining out experience was at a fast food taco restaurant where we could both eat for under $5.00. We cashed in change to buy groceries. I had to find a job after long years of being retired. That job has turned out to be a blessing, by the way.
Have we been bitter? Have we asked God why over and over again? Have we felt hurt, defeated, and betrayed, believing that He was our CEO through it all? You bet.
We had long, lonely, angry, fearful, exhausted days and nights, weeks and months of experiencing all of those feelings and never getting an answer to the why question. And I suspect we never will while on this earth, living in this world.
God promises to provide us with what we need and He always has. Our ambition aside, He never promised us big, beautiful houses, fat bank accounts or luxury life styles. He says He will be with us through the turmoil and that He will never leave us or forsake us. Has He kept that promise?
Well, six years later we are still living in our mobile home and I continue to surrender on a daily basis to the humility it takes to remain here. You see, living in a very affluent area, we are pretty much down on the bottom of the homeowner scale.
On the up side, my husband is a very talented contractor and has turned this tin box into quite a showpiece. As far as mobile homes go, this one is “home sweet home”. God has provided for us in many ways. We are living quite comfortably, though humbly, again.
Will we one day get answers to our pressing questions? I suspect so. “For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.” Ephesians 13:12 NIV
For those other why puzzlers, we’ll just have to wait and see.
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