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Topic: Confident (07/05/07)
TITLE: Healing... a Risk?
By Angela M. Baker-Bridge
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â€śTake this. Anything else I can do?â€ť I asked the attractive mid-thirtyish woman.
â€śNot really. Iâ€™m here to discuss surgery,â€ť her voice trembled.
â€śIâ€™m so sorry. If you want to talk about it, Iâ€™m a good listener.â€ť With our OB-GYN delivering a baby, our appointments were backed-up.
Sighing, she explained her medical history up to the disturbing diagnosisâ€¦ hysterectomy. Sheâ€™d lived recklessly, been hurt, disappointed, and now this frightened newlywed trusted no one. Her emotional pain outweighed her physical pain. Surgery wouldnâ€™t cure her scars. Overwhelmed, she blurted out, â€śYouâ€™ve absolutely no idea how I feel.â€ť
â€śActually I do. At 29, I was told a hysterectomy was my only choice.â€ť
â€śReally?â€ť She seemed surprised. â€śWhatâ€™d you do?â€ť
Briefly, I shared my medical story, answering her questions. Then the bomb, â€śThe entire experience had a greater impact than the surgery.â€ť
Her eyebrows and curiosity rose. â€śLike what?â€ť She asked.
â€śFor starters, my husband didnâ€™t take it well. The prospect of not having any more children had a negative impact. We fought all the time. Our marriage started crumbling. I was angry, afraid, and living far from family, very alone. I did have a Womenâ€™s Prayer Group. Do you have one?â€ť I asked.
â€śNah, I do go to church once in awhile,â€ť she shrugged, touching her wedding band.
â€śWell,â€ť I continued, â€śwe prayed for physical and marriage miracles.â€ť
â€śDid you get any?â€ť she asked with interest.
â€śSeveral weeks passed before I believe God spoke to my heart to stop worrying, my healings were coming.â€ť
â€śYouâ€™re kidding,â€ť she interrupted skeptically.
â€śThe women encouraged me to keep praying, believing, and waiting. I didnâ€™t see any evidence of healing, actually I felt worse. After a difficult eight months, finally our marriage started improving. In fact, months later we started-over, moving cross-country. Before moving, again my doctor suggested a hysterectomy. I still refused, confident God would heal me.â€ť
â€śWasnâ€™t that risky?â€ť
â€śSo is driving!â€ť I laughed. â€śI wasnâ€™t a risk taker, just exercising my faith. Then, in new surroundings, time ran out. A date for surgery was set; I expected healing. The hospital admitted me; I expected healing. Surgical preparation began; I expected healing. They wheeled me to the OR; I smiled, imagining their faces when theyâ€™d see I was healed.â€ť
At that moment, a staff member walked in. â€śSorry for the delay, but Doctor H. has arrived. The baby was 9lbs. 13.5ozs. Bruiser and bruised are doing great.â€ť We laughed and applauded. â€śSheâ€™ll begin seeing patients shortly.â€ť
As everyone cheered, I got up for water. I had at least another hour to wait.
â€śWell?â€ť the young woman asked in an elevated tone. â€śYou canâ€™t just leave me hanging. What happened?â€ť
Seated again, I confessed, â€śI awoke in recovery, 30 years old, with a hysterectomy. The shock and disappointment plunged me into a two-year depression. Iâ€™d been so confident. My heart ached. How could I ever trust myself or God again?â€ť
â€śHave you trusted God again?â€ť Her face now hardened. â€śThatâ€™s big for me. Heâ€™s always let me down.â€ť
Leaning closer, I explained, â€śIt wasnâ€™t the same anymore. I practiced religious rituals, acted as if I trusted God, volunteered for everything. During a massive church outreach, several women volunteers didnâ€™t show because of cramps or bleeding. I worked like crazy. Suddenly, I felt God speak to my heart as Heâ€™d done before the surgeryâ€¦ I was healed, just not as I'd expected. My healing was a permanent one that freed me for what my future held, like that crisis.â€ť
â€śHmm,â€ť she nodded, â€śinteresting.â€ť
â€śI knowâ€¦ but the Bible shows God healing many ways. For a bleeding woman it was instantly.* However, Hezekiahâ€™s instructions were a holistic approach to heal his boil.** Naamanâ€™s leprosy needed seven dips in the river.*** Jesus healed another manâ€™s leprosy instantly.**** Others received total healing through death.*****â€ť
â€śYou really believe that stuff?â€ť
â€śAbsolutely. Confidence in medicine disappointsâ€¦ itâ€™s a created tool. Being confident in the Creator, though itâ€™s not always our way, brings peace.â€ť
With glistening eyes, she whispered, â€śI need that peaceâ€¦â€ť
â€śThen ask God, and be confident, you will be healed.â€ť
*Mark 5:26-29 â€śShe had suffered a great deal under the care of many doctors and had spent all she had, yet instead of getting better she grew worse. 27) When she heard about Jesus, she came up behind him in the crowd and touched his cloak, 28) because she thought, "If I just touch his clothes, I will be healed." 29) Immediately her bleeding stopped and she felt in her body that she was freed from her sufferingâ€ť
**Isaiah 38:21 â€śIsaiah had said, "Prepare a poultice of figs and apply it to the boil, and he will recover."
***II Kings 5:14 â€śSo he went down and dipped himself in the Jordan seven times, as the man of God had told him, and his flesh was restored and became clean like that of a young boy.â€ť
****Matthew 8:3 â€śJesus reached out his hand and touched the man."I am willing," he said. "Be clean!" Immediately he was cured of his leprosy.â€ť
*****Hebrews 11:37 â€śThey were stoned; they were sawed in two; they were put to death by the sword. They went about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated,â€ť
- Author's Note: The woman's fictional. My story's true. Dr. H.'s office does look like a tropical paradise!
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