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I was performing everyday but there was this something missing in my life. I had a wonderful husband and two lovely children. My job was important and so challenging that I would become so involved in it that I would hate to leave work in the evening. I knew this wasn't normal but I was seeking perfection and praise to build me up as a person. There was something I was seeking that needed satisfaction but nothing I did brought a fullfillment in my life. Everyday, I existed and the emptiness overtook my life. I'd wait daily for that big happening; I knew it had to come one day in the near future. I would push myself to the limit until I was totally exhausted and would end up feeling empty and alone.
The more love and care my husband and children showered me with, the more I craved that contentment. We'd take nice vacations, buy nice homes, I'd adorn myself in jewelry and clothes, attend important community meetings and activities, and get my children involved in every sport and pageant that I could. One day, I spoke to my husband about this austerity that I was continually searching for and that caused him to feel I was unhappy with him. The more I tried to assure him it wasn't him; I could see his sad face, wondering if I wasn't being honest with him.
I was an Easter Sunday, we always went to church but for some reason, in my heart, I felt a special need to go to this particular service. I was longing for a message from the Bible to calm the aching need in my soul. We go to church that day, I didn't expect anything unusual to happen but when the minister started his message, tears started to flow down my cheeks, and I couldn't wait until the altar call asking for anyone needing a renewal and an acceptance of God in their life to please come forward. I felt shy and didn't want to get up in front of all these people but I knew I couldn't take another day feeling empty, I needed a change in my life. I nudge my husband and step out into the isle to take the walk to the altar. The walk was long and I didn't think I'd ever get there. I stood that day before the minister and and the crowd. I turn to see my husband and children coming forward to. We gave our lives to Jesus Christ that day and I am now living a life without that something missing in my life. I feel a sense of happiness I cannot describe to anyone. I now want to tell the world about my newfound contentment.
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