My heart is breaking, and I kneel before You with my heart in my hands lifted up as an offering to You…
All that is holding my heart together are the chains that have it bound. They keep me from feeling or letting anyone close to me again. They keep me from letting You close to me. I want to feel love again, but without hope the chains cannot be removed.
I want so desperately to feel again, but I am afraid. Maybe I really don’t want the chains to be broken. I thought it was the enemy who put them there, but maybe it was me. I can still hear his voice relentlessly telling me to put them there, but it’s as if he had no power to do it himself.
“You have to protect your heart. Didn’t He tell you to guard your heart?”
“Yes, it’s in His Word.”
“Then do it. Put the chains on your heart and keep anyone else from ever breaking it again. It is already in so many pieces. Can you really afford to let someone else come and finish the job? What are you waiting for?”
So I did it. First one chain, then another and another, until it was so bound up that no one could possibly hurt me again. I feel so cold inside. There is a struggle going on deep within me. I am fighting myself to break free of the chains that hold me captive.
There is another voice – a gentle voice. It is Your voice. You want me to offer my heart to You so You can help me.
Oh, but I can’t do that! “Yes, I know. I have to take a chance and let someone love me again. You won’t hurt me; will You?”
I am trembling as I reach deep inside and pull out my heart and hold it in my hands. It is barely beating. The chains are so big and heavy. There seems to be no beginning or end to them. I look into Your eyes, and I see that You are silently pleading with me to trust You.
Oh, how You take my breath away. For just a moment, I forget that I am holding my heart in my hands.
“Give it to me,” You gently plead.
I look down and see it begin to beat stronger, struggling against the chains.
You reach Your hand out to take it, and I see the scar there. They crucified You, but still You loved them.
You wipe the tears from my face, and the feeling is so overwhelming. I drop to my knees before You lifting my hands up to give You my heart.
“Jesus, I need You to love me.”
The chains break and fall at Your feet as peace washes over me.
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