Hello everyone. This is difficult for me; but it is not as hard as it would be if I had to tell you person. It's not a pride thing, no... I would just be wasting your time with choking up with tears, not able to speak, because the hurts are so real.
We've all heard the saying of the world: Just give it some time. Time heals all wounds.
While that may be somewhat true if we are wounded physically (infections can cause physical wounds to become worse); it is simply NOT true spiritually, mentally or emotionally. The pain and suffering inflicted on us as children stays with us all of our lives. Unless we deal with those past hurts with God's help, shedding His light in those dark places, those types of wounds will never heal.
In fact, time can makes those wounds worse. Festering in our hearts for weeks, months, years--even decades--just exacerbates the heartaches. For me, I tried to deal with it all on my own by drowning the pain in alcohol and drugs and imposing my selfish pain on everyone around me. I thought I lived in a bubble, having the "I'm not hurting anybody" attitude when the opposite was true; I was more like a tornado, leaving a destructive swath behind me.
My life was going down a dead end path.
One night, in my drugged-drunken state-of-mind, I trashed the kitchen, and then passed out on the floor. At one point, God woke me up just enough to see my wife, standing there, weeping, praying for my deliverance from the hurts of the past, and healing for the root of all my anger and bitterness. Her prayer for me was a seed that was planted in my hardened heart that eventually grew into what I've become today.
The spotlight of the Light of the World shined in the dark places of my life was uncomfortable at first, but as my eyes adjusted to the Light, I realized I could see Jesus. One day at a time He's worked on me, shaping me from a broken empty vessel of rage and hate to a new man, filled with the His Holy Spirit of love and compassion.
My lifelong road to recovery had begun.
My wife encouraged me to join the 12 Step Recovery meetings held every week at a local church. I tried to go the first time, but sat in my car in the parking lot. I was afraid. When she asked how it went, I told her the truth. She responded, "That's okay, I will go with you next week."
Week after week, we've gone together, and the people are honest and compassionate. I'm not alone: several of the men there have gone through--or are going through--similar situations. As I work the steps, I'm facing those wounds from my past, and with God's help, He is healing me. I have forgiven my parents and grandparents and anyone and everyone else I can remember. Forgiveness is the key to healing. By faith, I'm letting go of the hurts and the hang-ups and letting God heal me.
When I was growing up, we were told never to cry. I never cried until I was in my second Christian 12-Step Recovery meeting-I was 22 years old. As they sang and worshipped God in the beginning of the meeting, I broke down and wept...
...I still remember that night and cry, like it was last night...
Sorry about that... I wanted to make this video so you could hear and see it for yourself. This is only part of my testimony of all the wonderful things God has done and is doing in my life. I am concerned for those of you who are going through similar situations; you may not have trouble with alcohol or drugs. Maybe you are a workaholic: you try to stay so busy so you don't have to stop and think about the hurtful times of the past.
The answer is not out there in the world. All their expensive advice and drugs will not heal you; it only buries the misery.
The bottom line: don't believe the lie that time heals all wounds: it doesn't. Only Jesus Christ--The Mighty God of the universe, He who knows no time boundaries--can go back in time and heal those wounds from the past.
Jesus heals all wounds.
God bless you, thank you, and I love you.
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