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Previous Challenge Entry (Level 3 – Advanced)
Topic: Question (05/24/12)

TITLE: Papa, Can You Hear Me?
By Connie Walcott
05/30/12


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I posed a question to God one dayÖ it was a conversation unfit for tea time in the parlor, and was a very heated conversation. I was in the driverís seat of my car, sweltering in the heat of the Arizona desert that had recently become my new home.

I was riddled with pain, and in desperate need of a 9-1-1 response from heaven. My body was weak from the need for medical attention, while my spirit was grieving yet another loss that had long been the hallmark of my life.

I was far from home, alone and without resources; but my deepest pain was that I felt far from the presence of God.

I had just received the news that my father had passed. The pain racking my body couldnít begin to compare to the waves of grief that assailed me at the news of his passing.

I didnít realize it then, but I was in exactly the place God intended for me to be. It was one of the saddest, most horrific days of my life and it seemed that God wasnít even paying attention!

At that moment, all I could feel was the final loss of my hopes for a relationship with the man who would now be absent forever. I was angry with him for leaving me again, and resented the pain that was attached to my lifetime of fatherless memories.

The news of my fatherís passing triggered a lifetime of stifled emotions. I threw myself at Godís feet, but I didnít arrive in a beautiful white dress, or with the ability to engage in a rational conversation.

I arrived at His throne, once again, as a shattered and battered child who was ever searching for the unconditional love of father.

I was confused, lonely, sick, and very, very angry. I couldnít reconcile the love of God with the realities of my life. I couldnít understand how a loving God could ignore me as I wept in despair. I not only felt abandoned by my father, I felt abandoned by God!

The festering emotions that had lain dormant for years came rushing forth like a mighty raging river. I was in a public place, but the pain wouldnít wait for me to find a private place for my conversation with God.

I picked up my cell phone so it would look like I was talking with ďsomeone.Ē
Through tears of anguish, I raged at GodÖ
ďWhy donít you love me? Why arenít you doing something to help me? I need a dentist, but I am terrified of them! Iím so sick with another abscessed tooth, and you donít even care! How can you let me keep suffering like this?

My dad is gone for good, and I canít ask him for help. You are supposed to be my father! If you were here in the flesh I would call you for help.

I need my own place; and furniture, and money to pay the bills. Why wonít you heal me so I can work, and pay my bills and take care of my daughter? I canít even take care of myself, how can I begin to take care of her???

Why are you ignoring me? If you love me so much, why donít you show up? Why donít you care enough about me to take care of me? Iím sick and tired of being sick and tired, and you donít care enough to do anything about it!ď

Deep wounds of rejection were draining the life from my life, and God had no intention of allowing them to destroy His good plans for me.

God knew it would require deep pruning of my childhood memories to heal my mind and bring me to emotional wholeness. I didnít know it then, but the questions I hurled at God that day were part of the process I needed to turn the course of my life.

My tears eventually subsided, and I headed back to the temporary home that would eventually become yet another stepping stone to my brighter future.

God had a reason for His silence that day. There was divine purpose hidden within the release of my deep seated pain, but the question had now become, would I be willing to wait for God to reveal it to me?

My eternal destiny was at stake, and I can almost imagine that Father God held his breath as He waited for my responseÖ


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Genia Gilbert06/01/12
You show well the pain and questions that come from deep and longterm hurt. I am so glad God hears those kinds of cries, and can always handle our questions and heal our hearts when we let Him. Good job on this.
Leola Ogle 06/01/12
Wow! First off, if this is a true story, welcome fellow Arizonan! I, too, live in the hot desert of Arizona. (112 degrees in Phoenix today) Secondly, I had to really look at this to make sure I didn't write it because I have also had those raging conversations with God. Isn't it precious how He loves and is okay when we vent and ask Him questions? This was well written. God bless!
Camille (C D) Swanson 06/02/12
Powerful, emotional and intense entry. The conversation with God was riveting. I felt the MC's pain and anguish.

God bless~
Hiram Claudio06/04/12
This was very intense, moving, powerful, and felt very ... real! I could feel the despair of the MC and the struggle to make sense of life. This was very well written and you did a wonderful job of showing and painting vivid word picture. Great job!
Shann Hall-LochmannVanBennekom 06/08/12
Congratulations for ranking 14th in level 3!