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Topic: Red (10/01/09)
TITLE: The Red Haze
By Pamela Kliewer
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I blink several times.
It doesn’t work.
I got so angry this time that <i>now</I> I can’t get <i>rid</i> of the <i>it</i>?
I don’t really remember when this problem started; I know it’s been going on for years.
This is the longest the haze has ever stayed – over forty-five minutes now. It’s usually gone in one to fifteen.
Everything I see is filtered through this weird light.
Maybe if I hang my head between my knees…
Sitting on the bed, I do just that.
I leave it there for a few minutes, then slowly raise my body.
I’m panicking now. Why won’t this go away?
<i>You’re still angry.</i>
Who said that?
<i>Valerie, how long has it been since you’ve talked to me?</i>
I figure if I just go about my day and ignore Him, He’ll leave me alone.
I finish getting ready to leave for my volunteer position at the hospital - that’s what I was doing when the red haze started.
Hmmm, what was it that made me angry?
I’m kind of embarrassed about this.
I was zipping up my dress and I couldn’t get the zipper pulled up all the way.
I went into an absolute rage.
It wasn’t pretty.
I’m glad everyone else was out the door already.
I - uh - well -
I started screaming and jerking around, yanking on that zipper...
I yanked it down, then back up.
It wouldn’t get past a certain point.
Then, I went berserk.
Flailing my arms every which way.
I’m sure I was quite a sight.
I pushed the dress off my body, hard.
My favorite dress!
Since it was torn anyway, I thought I might as well finish the job.
I stepped out of it and grabbed it off the floor.
Seeing where it was torn, I pulled on the fabric, shredding it.
Ha! That’s what you get for trying to best me, you stupid dress. You were always a little too pink for my taste anyway.
<i> That was a bit much over not being able to get a dress zipped up wasn’t it?</i>
God, you’re still here?
<i>Where did you think I would go? I said I would never leave you or forsake you. You think now that in your time of anger, I’d break that promise. Not gonna happen.</i>
What? I snap.
<i>Don’t you think we need to talk?</i> God’s voice, as usual, is gentle, calming me...
Yeah, I guess it’s been awhile.
<i>You weren’t just angry over the dress, were you?</i>
I hang my head.
I can almost feel God putting His finger under my chin, lifting it so I can look at Him.
Tears slide down my cheeks.
The red haze clears.
<i>Valerie, tell my why you were angry.</i>
But God you already know.
<i>Yes, that’s true. I do know. But you need to talk to me.</i>
Okay, if you’re sure...
Why do you keep taking things away from me? Everything that’s been important to me, you rip from my heart. I feel like you don’t even care. You took me from a place I loved living, where I had tons of friends, and put me in a place where I don’t know anyone and nothing is familiar!
<i>Valerie, that was five years ago. And didn’t you pray for my will to be done in your life?</i>
Welll, yeah. I guess I did.
<i>And don’t you like your ‘job’ at the hospital?</i>
A smile creases my face.
Yes, God, you know I do, very much.
Holding those premature babies is a joyous balm to my heart.
<i>You need to stop letting that be the only time you feel joy. I have put you where you are for my purposes. I want you to learn to cling to me.
Let this anger go.
Spend time with me.
Let me fill the empty places of your heart.
I am more than able.</i>
But God, I have ignored you for so long. Do you really want to spend time with <i>me</i>?
<i>Yes, my child, I do.
I love relationships.
I know you do too, because you bear my image, so what better place to start, then growing your relationship with me?</i>
As I finish getting ready to leave, my heart softens more and I know I have a lot to think about over the next few days.
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