“Never forsake your Lord”, the words sounded in my heart.
I couldn’t believe I was hearing the request. Never would I forsake my Lord! Nothing could give me cause to sellout the Lord. NOTHING and NEVER.
Every word of my thought was true, and a promise I believed with all my heart. Little did I know that the Lord was giving me fair warning. Between the lines He was telling me that in the world I would have trouble. There was breaking I needed, and more forming to be done on the Potter’s wheel. And there would be fire!
It is one thing to hear God’s Words and know the Words, but living them is another story. Was I ready? I thought I was, after all I attended church, read my Bible, faithfully prayed, and served whenever opportunity presented itself. I was a soldier of the war and knew how to dress in the armor.
I recalled Romans 13:12 NKJV, “The night is far spent, the day is at hand. Therefore let us cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armor of light”. This I had done, so why was God warning and asking me to never forsake Him?
The days rolled on, the weeks added up, months were spent, and then THE day came. It was THE day that the breaking came. God stood back and allowed Satan to attack. The fiery darts struck the armor I was wearing that day. I couldn’t understand when the darts penetrated and pierced my heart, breaking it into a million pieces. They took truth and righteousness and turned it all into lies, shame and guilt. I struggled to keep from drowning as the lifesaving peace burst into a mass of anxiety, fear, and blame. The precious Word that had been so much a part of my daily life drifted farther and farther from my memory’s reach. I struggled to pray but it resisted my attempts. The church altar became a mysterious fearful place to be avoided. My losses kept piling up.
“Never forsake your Lord!” The words cried out again filling my whole being. The words turned the sellout moment to taking on Paul’s words in Ephesians 6:11 NKJV, “Put on the whole armor of God that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.”
The dawning of revelation fell upon me. The Holy Spirit gave me wisdom of the words that Paul gave us in Ephesians 6 on being prepared and putting on the whole armor of God. I had thought I had done that but He knew I had not. I had many cracks in my armor which opened me up to the fiery darts of principalities, powers, rulers of the darkness of this age, and spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.
The labeling on the darts that caused me to forsake for a time the peace of the Lord that I had promised to walk in does not matter. I do not feel need to describe in this testimony the actual events that caused my fall, but what is important is lessons I learned.
I learned that I need to always have on full armor by being girded at the waist with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness, having my feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; and having taken on the shield of faith which I will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. Also I need the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. I must always pray and watch.
Having the proper armor will keep me faithful to the Lord and ready to boldly speak and make known the mystery of the gospel.
I have learned by experience how to stand strong for the Lord, to be a servant of the Lord, and to not sellout. I have survived breaking, molding, testing, and the fire. There will be more of that coming, and God has given me faith that with each wave of tests comes a stronger faith and a better me.
I love the Lord, He loves me, and neither of us will ever forsake the other.
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