“It’s my turn, Tommy,” I shrieked, slapping his arm and trying to grab the joystick.
“No, it’s not! It’s mine,” he yelled, tearing it out of my grasp.
“It is too my turn, you jerk!”
“It’s my turn. Leave me alone.”
Tommy threw the joystick at me and ran out of the room yelling, “Mom! Jenny won’t let me play Qbert! She keeps yelling at me and trying to take the joystick.”
“Jenny!” Mom yelled. “Stop bothering your brother. Let him play.”
“Mom! It’s not fair. He’s been playing a long time. I haven’t had a turn.”
“Jenny, you’re twelve years old. Leave your brother alone. I’m sure you have homework to do.”
“Jenny!” she yelled in the tone I dared not disobey.
I stormed to my room. My face was red. I looked at myself in the mirror and screamed under my breath. I grabbed my dresser. My brother was so mean. Mom always took his side. It wasn’t fair.
I fumed over the injustice of it all. My anger mounted. My body shook. I felt out of control. I wanted to hurt my brother, bad.
I got scared. There was something more powerful than me in all that rage. It was as if it had taken me over.
I shook my head. I forced myself to think about the times my brother and I had fun together. I remembered how sweet he could be. I was mad at him, but I loved him. He might be selfish and Mom might be unfair, but they were my family. I could stand it.
I never again allowed myself to fully vent my rage. I realized the destructive potential of anger that day as a young girl who knew little about God and even less about the devil.
In my ignorance I stumbled upon the truth of the Biblical principle taught in Proverbs 29:11, “A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control.” I personally experienced Proverbs 27:4a, “Anger is cruel and fury overwhelming…”
All of us feel the emotion, anger. Feeling angry in itself is not a sin. Holding onto anger and nursing it into bitterness and violence is sin. Ps 4:4-5 says, “In your anger do not sin; when you are on your beds, search your hearts and be silent. Offer right sacrifices and trust in the LORD.” Letting go of anger is a right sacrifice before God. We can trust Him to protect us and supply the justice our anger demands, but only if we sacrifice our right to be angry to Him.
On September 11, 2001 my country was brutally, cruelly attacked. Innocent people died because of the anger of terrorists. What the terrorists do not understand is that they are being destroyed by their own anger as surely and swiftly as they are destroying others. They are deceived. So deceived that they actually believe murdering innocent people is serving God. They think sacrificing their lives to hurt those who don’t believe as they do will gain them entrance into “paradise.”
I was angry on September 11th, but not at the terrorists. I was angry at the evil one who was the true force behind the attacks. In the midst of my pain and fear I got on my knees and prayed for Osama Bin Laden’s repentance. I still do. I pray that the scales will fall from his eyes as they did from the Apostle Paul’s eyes. I pray that instead of leading his people to death, destruction and Hell he will repent publicly and lead them into true righteousness.
James 1:20 “…for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires.”
A pipe dream? No way! Remember Jeremiah 32:27 "I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?”
All scripture references are NIV.
The opinions expressed by authors may not necessarily reflect the opinion of FaithWriters.com.
If you died today, are you absolutely certain that you would go to heaven? You can be right now. CLICK HERE
JOIN US at FaithWriters for Free. Grow as a Writer and Spread the Gospel.