So, who are you, really? Iíve never seen this side of you before. Weíve known each other for years, but I donít really know you at all. How can you do this? How can you just walk away from this like it doesnít exist at all?
Youíre the one that seems to think itís a real life, no one else does.
But itís important to me. Why canít you see that? Why donít you care what matters to me, why do I always have to do things your way. Do what you think is important. Just this once Iíd like to do something my way.
Yes, I know, but believe me, it isnít nearly as much fun as it sounds. Trust me, I know what Iím telling you.
I just want to experience it for myself. Iím tired of taking everyone elseís word for things. I want to do this myself. Iím tired of just trusting you; I need to do this my way.
I only want whatís good for you, you know. Iím trying to protect you.
No, youíre not, you just wonít let me grow-up, you want to keep me a kid forever. Well, Iím tired of being a kid, of being your ďchildĒ. When do I get to stop taking orders and making my own decisions?
You need to make wiser decisions. I plan to continue to help you do what is best.
Best for who? Best for you? Maybe thatís not what I think is best for me, have you ever thought of that?
Of course I have. Iím only here because I want whatís best for you.
Then stop playing games with me. Help me, instead of putting roadblocks in my path.
Son, itís not a game, weíre not playing Twenty Questions or Who Am I? or Charades. Iíve already told you who I am. Iíve told you several times, now. This isnít a new side of me at all; youíre just refusing to accept what you know. Because I wonít help you do things your way you think Iím stupid, or uncaring, or trying to make life hard for you. Have you ever stopped to think that life isnít just about YOU? That itís about things that are beyond your understanding?
Yeah, right, here we go again Iíve heard this song and dance so many times I can recite it in my sleep.
Actually, Jason, you are. The only time you talk to me anymore is in your sleep. You donít really know who I am because you wonít spend any time with me anymore. This crazy future you have all planned out is just that, crazy. Look, Iíve already created a plan for you. One based on reality, one that will take you much farther than yours will. Iíve already provided everything for you that you need to get there, and to be successful. Being a beach bum isnít a life, itís escaping from life. You canít spend your whole life chasing after the next big wave, trying to ride it in. I know itís important to you, and youíre good at riding the waves, but one of these days, youíre going to hit one bigger than you. You will crash, big-time.
Fine, then I guess Iíll just crash. Iím young, Iím tough, and Iím smart. I can ride any wave out there. I can ride any wave you can create. You think just because you created the world that you get to control it all. Well, I can do this! Iíll show you! I will, tomorrow Iíll show everyone.
ďJason. Oh Jason! Can you hear me? Just squeeze my hand if you hear me. Weíre here with you. Everythingís going to be all right. You just had surgery, but they say youíre almost as good as new. Dad and I are here, weíre going to stay right here by your side.Ē
ďItís okay Jason, you can go back to sleep. Weíre right here. Weíll be here when you wake up.Ē
God, I really messed up again, didnít I?
Yes Jason, but your mom was telling you the truth, youíre going to be all right. Life will be a little different now, after your accident, but I promise, I wonít walk away from you.
Okay, so what is this plan you have for me, anyways?
Just follow me, son follow me.
Proverbs 3: 5-8 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding. Acknowledge him in all your ways, and he will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own estimation; fear the Lord and turn away from evil. This will bring healing to your body, and refreshment to your inner self. Net Bible translation
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