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Topic: Worship (corporate) (10/04/07)
TITLE: God's Tears
By Martha Ford
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My usual place is in the orchestra. Today I sit in the sanctuary beside Virginia holding onto her hand as if physical separation will cause us both to fall into an abyss. She is not old enough to be my mother, but she assumes that role as we try to understand what is happening. There is no service today, instead a meeting lead by the Pastor and others.
Virginia and I each received the letter two weeks ago. Caught totally off guard, I called her to find out what the letter meant. It read like an ultimatum: change the way the services and programs were managed or find another pastor. He assured us that “most” members felt as he did and would follow his exit. If we didn’t accept his changes we would be responsible for a potential church split. From my place in the Music Ministry I had no idea that “most” of the members were unhappy or unsatisfied. We talked daily, praying and trying to understand the issues. The letter had been vague on that point.
Today we vote. I’m trying to understand what we are voting for: a change in the order of worship, change of personnel, or change in doctrine? Virginia can’t quit pinpoint the issues either. So we hang on to each other, listen to the pastor’s presentation and pray. Is God angry or sad? Who are the letter-writers angry with? What exactly are they angry about? Does the answer need to be either/or? Or is there a compromise that honors God?
I’ll admit the many recent changes that affected the Music Ministry were trying, but I felt we accommodated them with a sweet spirit. Then two weeks ago the changes appeared to cease in mid change. Members usually part of the service were missing. Was that when the Church chose up sides as if this was just a schoolyard game and not God’s business?
My God and my Church are my life. He never forsakes me, especially when humans do. He is the center of my worship. Is He not the center of all the lives in this Church? Why do I feel like an eight year old, sitting on the bench outside the principal’s office? I squeeze Virginia’s hand.
Ballots are being passed out. Our Church’s fate is reduced to a 5 by 7 piece of paper with two questions written on it in bold black letters. How can all the lives, loves, births, deaths, services, activities, teaching, learning, laughter and tears of nearly a thousand people fit into two questions on a small piece of paper?
Nothing is significant enough to take precedent over God and His Church. Nothing is more significant than the people’s relationship with God? Not the order of worship or who gets to be boss. Not who makes the decisions about the building, grounds and programs. It’s the Church that matters, not the pettiness of its individuals.
That’s it! I hear God whispering in my ear. Vote for the Church. Virginia and I share a look. She understands this too. My heart is calm, His answer is clear. My ballot is in my hands. One more prayer is in my heart, this time a prayer of thanksgiving. My hand uses the pencil from the slot in the back of the pew to mark the tiny paper that holds the fate of this entire Church within its words. No, only God holds us. Vote for the Church and let God handle the rest.
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