It was all arranged so perfectly. Every thing had its place, even her favorite pair of saddle shoes.
It's hard to imagine such a perfect little place holding so much pain, but there it was, hiding out inside the soul of this shy, brown-haired girl who lay atop a powder blue quilt, humming along with Pat Boone and flipping steadily through the latest Teen Idol.
When Marie was just a baby, she was found on the steps of a small church in the dusty plains of west Texas. The pastor made a call to a woman in the congregation with a kind heart and a generous bank account, and Marie found a home.
Marie was small and homely. She was shy and tended to whine. She was a terribly picky eater and didn't play well with her older sister.
Soon after Marie arrived, Mama adopted another child. She was a delightful child and quickly absorbed the spotlight, taking away the last sparkles of light that fell on Marie.
Marie tried her best. She was loyal and obedient and never caused trouble. It mattered not. Mama's heart belonged to her younger sister now, and it always would. Mama was never unkind, but the lack of unconditional love left a gaping hole in Marie.
Life and manipulation brought Marie a sweetheart even before she'd left home. She was wed and on her way to happily ever after, she thought.
Four children, one workaholic, and an affair of her own later, Marie found herself alone. She clung to the dream that her new lover was as eager to leave his wife as he claimed and that she'd finally have a man who would dote on her the way she deserved. She would finally be the prize in someone's eyes.
One gold-digger, philandering type later, she was alone again.
As she neared 60, the idea that she could fill this hole without a man crossed her mind. As she neared 60, the idea of living independently, the thought of being whole on her own, graced the corners of her heart.
As she neared 60, she began to dream about her children loving her so much that they would take care of her. As she neared 60, she began to stuff any notion of independence and wholeness down further than they'd ever been before. The excavation and restoration would require too much.
Just last week, Marie announced she was going to move in with her daughter. It's just temporary, you see. She's going to find a new home to live in, and this time it will be perfect.
“[They do not] light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.” Matthew 5:15-16 (NKJV)
The opinions expressed by authors may not necessarily reflect the opinion of FaithWriters.com.
If you died today, are you absolutely certain that you would go to heaven? You can be right now. CLICK HERE
JOIN US at FaithWriters for Free. Grow as a Writer and Spread the Gospel.