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Topic: Personal Peace (06/01/06)
TITLE: In the Midst of War is My Life
By Yolonda Juers
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I cycle through battle preparation, battle engagement and battle recovery with periodic stints in survival mode when I disengage from the battle. Often, I can’t tell the difference between these maneuvers. It is only upon reflection that I recognize that movement occurred and that I’ve learned some pivotal life lessons.
1. I’m not who I thought I was.
I’m appalled at how I’ve allowed myself to be deceived. The enemy has done an excellent snow job, a combination of distraction and deceit bound together. Distraction in the sense that I’m focused on everyone else and what they have or I’m fixated on my past so I don’t have my eyes on God and where He is leading me. I’ve discovered deceit in the sense that I’ve learned to lie to myself and believe it as truth. It is only when I look into the mirror of truth, meaning the Bible that I realize how deceived I’ve been. And, unfortunately, the more deceived I’ve been, the more content I actually thought I was. In digging beneath the surface, I’m unhappy with what I find, but, I can’t get better without an immersion in the unvarnished truth and an acceptance of who I truly am.
2. I’m miserable unless I’m doing the will of my Father.
No matter what is going on in my heart or circumstances, unless I’m doing the will of My Father, I’m one miserable woman. When I look to Him to lead me, when I ask the Holy Spirit to come take up residence in my heart, then I’m content. The Presence of God provides comfort and contentment. Nothing else can provide the completeness that I have tasted and that I so desperately crave.
When I start feeling unhappy it is a sign I’m trying to wrestle control back from my Father. I’m in that pattern of giving all to Him, and slowly trying to regain control only to reach a frustrating impasse, when I give all over to Him again. Generally what happens is I’ve made a very significant and devious turn from knowing that only Jesus can provide salvation into thinking that I’m earning my salvation by my works. How very ludicrous, and I know better.
3. I don’t get to choose which burdens I’m given.
There are some burdens I simply don’t want to carry. I don’t want to exist instead of live. I don’t want fear to drive my decisions or influence my life. Above all, I don’t want to fail. I’ve spent many an hour, audaciously telling God what I don’t want. The bottom line is that any and all burdens given to me are His to choose. And whatever He may choose, it is for my eternal benefit, not for my immediate comfort.
4. I don’t get to choose when to lay down my burdens.
There have been times that I’ve been tired and battle weary. I thought I was done, weighed down with exhaustion. Surely I was ready to leave this earth and go home? In His infinite wisdom, He knew I wasn’t ready. There was more to learn, more to experience, and more to give Him.
5. I don’t get to choose which gifts I’m given.
I want to be a singer, to belt out those gloriously rich and sweet notes. I want to praise the Lord with music and song. I want to feel the beat of the music in my soul. The truth is, singing isn’t my gift, no matter how much I want it. For some reason, God has chosen to give me other gifts. Only God has the power and the right to give me the gifts He chooses.
So, what’s left? What can I choose?
It is my choice to use the gifts He has given to me. It is my choice to pray, passionately and consistently. It is my choice to persevere until My Father calls me home. And, it is my choice to love while persevering.
What brings me personal peace is an acceptance of God’s pure and perfect plan for my life. Lastly, it is my choice to engage in this war, also known as life.
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