The Diary of a Procrastinator.
Noticed the mountain of paperwork (still) needing attention, which seems to have doubled in size since the last cursory glance. Spotted a few rather rude-looking red ones lurking in amongst the mix. Shall I deal with it today or not? Considered pros and cons:
a) No more disconnection threats if bills buried somewhere therein get paid.
b) Might be able to see what colour my kitchen table is again; have long since forgotten.
a) Most despised job of all and pile is of epic proportions. Plus Other Halfís (OH) organisational skills superior to mine (three reasons!).
b) Laptop game is way more fun...
Solution: TCP (tea, chocolate and procrastinate) and laptop game.
Weighed up pros and cons of doing a Bible Study today, finally concluding that given I havenít got round to it in over six months, there really isnít much hope of me finding time for it today Ė even though the pros of doing it are overwhelming. Itís amazing how busy life is...
Maybe I should have a to-do list for each day. Decide on that tomorrow.
Running perilously low on chocolate. Tea supply looks depleted too.
Pros of going shopping today:
a) Chocolate and tea supply restored.
a) I hate shops.
b) I hate shopping.
Still undecided on to-do lists.
Solution: Tomorrow will do fine. TCP (small ration of C).
Not sure which was worse; the landline being disconnected or the ensuing earful from OH, who blames me (for not getting the paperwork sorted)! Calling me Ďavoidantí was a bit harsh, surely?
Wondering if Iíve robbed myself of a good evening out with the kids tonight by finding reasons (more accurately, excuses) why not to go. Instead, I shouldíve looked for reasons to go, for one I might have enjoyed it. Why did I make the cost an issue? Surely an evening of family fun would have been priceless...
Now completely out of chocolate. Really must get that sorted tomorrow. But then again, the weather forecast looks dire and Iíve nearly nailed that impossible level on my game... Decisions, decisions!
Perhaps OH has a point about me being avoidant.
Still canít decide if pros for a to-do list outweigh the cons.
Solution: Tea, no chocolate and feel annoyed with myself. Then procrastinate some more.
Disaster! Out of tea! No chocolate and now no tea. Did my dislike of shops and shopping matter more than being out of tea and chocolate? Must get my act together.
Solution: Something other than procrastinate.
Got round to Bible study (see Tues). Opened Bible and read: ĎBe on your guard, then, because you do not know what day your Lord will come (Matt 24:42).í
No time for mentally wrangling with pros and cons when Jesus comes (could be any time!). What if He finds me procrastinating instead of being productive? Suddenly, Iím feeling painfully aware how indecision causes me to miss the bigger picture, and waste time and opportunities every day.
Surely itís wise to carefully weigh up pros and cons when making decisions, but this going way too far! Deliberating reasons for and against all day long allows me to run away from making decisions, which I do because Iím scared of getting it wrong. When I think about it, my Ďconsí are Ė at best Ė excuses, and Ďprosí just unconvincing mirages. Thus, Iím procrastinating out of fear, not wisdom. I thought I was being wise Ė I wasnít. Meanwhile, inaction masquerading as safety leeches away my God-given opportunities for joy, new challenges and surprises.
Pros for ditching procrastination:
By failing to act, Iím failing to live.
Thatís all I need.
Went shopping (purchased tea and chocolate) then tackled the paperwork Behemoth (see Mon). It was a long slog but at least it is done, a satisfying feeling! OH happy now landline is reconnected. Two positive reasons why I should have done it last week and spared myself (and OH) the hassle. I guess if you sit on the fence, you should expect to get splinters in the backside... that was a negative I definitely should have considered!
Plan for evening: Taking kids and OH to see pantomime. Then tea, chocolate and write tomorrowís to-do list (no procrastinating).
P.S. can now also confirm the kitchen table is natural pine.
Authors note: This is entirely fictional and bears no intentional reference to anybody living or dead. Bible quotation from Good News Bible Matt. 24:42.
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