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In 2001 I had a mental breakdown, it was not the first, and I pray that it was the last breakdown of that severity. It was very severe and traumatic, and I would like to forget it ever happened to me. But I cant erase the memory of it happening. The trauma of it still haunts me at times. If I have a book in heaven, I wonder if at times if it is wrote down? I will never know, but I pray one day that the full truth and reason for the breakdown will be brought to light. At times I wonder if it was some sort of cruel prank or joke done on me. I am not a bad person, and do not know of any reason why someone would want to snuff out my life, unless I was a threat to them. The only person I know of is the enemy of my soul, Satan himself. He is the ultimate enemy and trickster, who will stop at nothing to destroy someone's soul. The next of the following paragraphs are some of what was going on. There is a lot I cant remember, what I do remember is sketched on my mind.
Among all the hellish voices working overtime to make me think I was crazy, I remember one certain voice at that spoke audibly at nighttime. It was a peaceful and sweet voice saying, "Sleep like a little baby." A good night's rest would have been good for me. I was not getting any rest from the tormenting voices that I heard. It was very frightening to me hearing how much these voices hated me and wanted me to die. I wanted that rest so bad, but I did not get much sleep at all in those days. I had to work and support a family. I did not have time to go crazy!
The voices were hounding me at every turn, twisting, tearing and spewing their hatred at me. Still longing, still searching, for that one still small voice echoed through the halls of my mind, "Sleep like a little baby." I clung to it, I held on, and I knew that my ultimate victory had been won at the cross, I knew Jesus had saved me and that He had the victory over the voices of the enemy mind giving me everlasting peace and rest!
"I give you Jesus the victory for each battle in my mind. My mind truly has been a battlefield." I remember that one voice telling me to give Jesus the victory. One voice told me to stand firm and be diligent against forces of darkness that were trying to get me to end my life. I went on to get the victory and to be able once again to sleep like a little baby. With the help of God almighty and understanding that I had a mental illness. I got on medicine and found that healing rest that I needed so badly. I thank God for how far He has brought me since 2001.
God enjoys giving rest to those He loves. A sound mind is a rested mind. There is a time of war, and a time to rest from fighting. The enemy of our souls will do whatever he can to steal that rest. We have to stay alert and vigilant for the devil can come across as that roaring lion. You know what? That lion does not have any teeth. He has been rendered powerless by the Blood of Jesus Christ! We can enter that sacred chamber and rest like a newborn in the arms of our eternal Father in Heaven.
Footnote: This really happened to me and is not fictional
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