She Forgot She Cried
It was just another ordinary December day.
I didn’t even know what to say.
I’d sit there and smile
And stare at the ugly green tile;
Until she was awake—
Then the silence would break.
Smiling I’d say, “Hi, how are you today?”
She’d reply, “I think it’s going to be a good day.”
Then she’d start talking about sometime in the past,
But the conversation doesn’t last.
I tried to keep her in the present,
But all she became was depressed.
I loved her so much,
But she didn’t want to be touched.
All I wanted to do was give her a hug;
But my hurting heart faced another rejected tug.
She asked me, “Why do you bother?”
I’d say, “It is no bother, I love you mother.”
She didn’t understand why she was there.
She said she didn’t like the smell of the air.
I wanted to take her home.
I didn’t like her being alone.
But she had to stay
So that she would be safe.
She would ask, “Why am I feeling so blue?”
And I knew—
I knew what was coming
And I felt like running.
Again she would say, “Have you seen my husband, Bill?
I didn’t see him leave for the mill.”
Like always, I would say, “I guess you don’t remember
That Dad passed in November.
We went to the wake
And everyone came for your sake.
She would cry and the tears would begin.
“I’m so sorry”, I’d say and cried as Mom relived his death again.
I always stayed and prayed.
I would sit in a chair beside her,
Until her tears subsided.
We would watch t.v. until the shock would again be relieved.
From the nursing home room I wanted to hide
As she forgot she even cried.
She smiled so rarely.
She was usually so weary.
But today she smiled as I left
And my heart started to melt.
I’d smile and say, “Good-bye until tomorrow.”
Then we would start all over with the same sorrow.
It’s just another ordinary September day
Not knowing what to say….
Oh, Lord, Alzheimer’s is such a sad disease.
I prayed to Father God that His Will be done, please.
She passed that September night
And she saw His beautiful bright light.
It was God’s Will.
Now she is with Jesus and my Dad, Bill.
(This was true).
Jeremiah 31:25(Amplified Version)—For I will (fully) satisfy the weary soul, and I will replenish every languishing and sorrowful person.
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