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Topic: Don’t Look Back (04/19/12)
TITLE: DON'T YOU HATE IT?
By Graham Insley
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First let me say that to open up and be totally honest is a little scary, and I’m afraid I’ll look like a bit of a fool. But I think the confession will be part of the healing. And I also believe that honest sharing of struggles is a key part of our faith. As Christians we are on a journey to expose our carnal mindsets and bring about the victory of transformation. When that happens we have a testimony to share. But before the testimony of victory comes the battle. And Christians tend to gloss over that part and deny it. But I’m still avoiding my issue, aren’t I?
For many years I have felt God calling me into a full time ministry. I have always run away from this for many different reasons. I can’t begin to share with you all of those reasons, some of which are still not even understood by me, but one or two of them are pretty obvious and probably common to most of us. They are best reflected by a series of questions.
Will people accept a sinner like me? Who do I think I am to believe I can help others when my own life has been such a mess? I’m just a common old hacker on a typewriter, why would people bother to read what I write? How will I ever survive financially in full time ministry? Who will pay my bills? What happens when I can’t pay the rent? And, of course, all of this leads to the big one.
Where’s my faith?
I think that last question is being asked by God; and really this question is the sum of all the questions and the one most needing to be answered. And don’t you really hate it when He isn’t prepared to let it go unanswered. As I said at the beginning, He is firmly getting my attention and bringing the issue to me in several different ways.
Lately, my finances have fallen into a big hole. A cyclone helped destroy my business and I now have to find a new way to support myself. I’m not destitute, but nor am I wealthy and able to just sit back. So God has my attention about my future. But I still end up asking questions like, “So what do you want me to do, Lord?”
I started to play with the thought of writing and joined an online group called ‘Faith Writers’. This group has a weekly challenge where writers are asked to put in an article on a specific subject each week. This is my third week attempting to meet this challenge and it has not been easy. But even here, God is speaking loudly to me.
My first subject was ‘Holiday’. It is easy after years of hard work, when it all suddenly comes to an end, to think. “Oh well, I’ll take a break for awhile.” But I am not on holiday and I need to prepare for what God is calling me to next.
The second subject was ‘Three Fold Cord’. A very firm reminder that I do not now do what I want to do, which would probably be something very lazy, but I must step into what God wants and bind myself to His business, done His way and through His provision. But then comes the final, big subject.
‘Don’t Look Back’. That challenges all the questions with one simple directive. As Luke 9:62 makes clear, once the hand is put on the plough there remains only one direction; forward.
You don’t need faith for a walk in the park, but we must push on in faith, with no regrets or backward glances, to enter into His calling for our lives.
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