Finding evidence of God living in your life and getting answers can be a tough thing. Can’t it? I know for me I have dealt with this practically all of my life. I have experienced some tragic events as well as many health issues.
However, I can tell that listening and hearing the voice of God can help you understand the reason for God’s direction in your life.
Listening is one of the hardest things you can do. Even still, doing it can be even harder. It wasn’t long ago that I lost my son and this event devastated me. I thought my world was falling apart. Years went by, when I question the voice of God. I didn’t want to listen. I ignored Him. It wasn’t until my health began to fall apart that I realized the plan that God had dealt to me in my life. You see, my heart had become bitter and my soul had become lost.
I was a Christian but my walk with was failing. I remember very clearly one day as I was talking with God. I was questioning His will for my life. My prayer was stern and my thoughts were firm.
“Dear God, my heart is grieved with the experience I have felt.
I know you must have a plan for my life but I cannot see this yet.
I need your direction for my life. I need to understand your plan.
My heart and my soul feel far away from you. So Lord, can you
hear my prayer. My tears are abundant and my prayers I have prayed
continuously. Can you hear me Lord? Do you know my heart? Can you see
the pain I am feeling? Just listen to my complaint and my sorrow. Will you?”
This was my prayer day and night as I grieved. It wasn’t until the day came that my granddaughter was home with me. I was alone while watching her. I had warned my stepdaughter as well as my husband the dangers of being alone with a child. Nevertheless, there I was alone with her. I am a Type 1 Diabetic and my blood sugars had gone low. I felt shaky and helpless. But God’s voice became strong that day. I began to hear His voice very clearly.
“Christy…This is my plan for you and I want you to know my ways.
I know your heart has been grieving for the loss of your son. I
know your love is strong and your walk has been solid. Yet, this
has not been my will for you. It was because of your health that
I felt you were not capable of having a child. It was because of
this that your prayer was not answered. So hear this, my prayer
for you is to follow my will for your life. Find your direction.
Find your purpose and create it to become your life. This experience you have been dealing with was my plan for you.” God said as I prayed.
I knew in that moment that God was right. How could I care for a child when my health was not well? So I started doing some research looking for something to feel my void. It wasn’t long that I knew exactly what I was to do. I began writing in my journal everyday expressing my thought and my feelings.
Then the idea came to me…why not become a writer? “How do I do that? What would I write about? Awe, why not write about my life.” I thought to myself.
I picked up my computer and started the thought process of what to write. Before I knew it I had several pages written. I was proud of myself as I finally had my words on paper. “How do I know what I am writing is the correct form and style of writing? I need to find a writer’s group to develop my writing.” The thoughts began to stew within me.
So I found a group and went to my first meeting. I shared my story and found all that I had written was totally wrong. “Wrong? How could it be wrong? It is my story. It is my life. How do I make it better?” I asked my leaders and members.
Their responses overwhelmed me. “Keep writing and never give up!” I knew this was the words I heard from God. My plan for my life!
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