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Previous Challenge Entry (Level 1 – Beginner)
Topic: Empty and Full (06/04/09)

TITLE: Dear Jesus, Let me die
By Rachel Lerch
06/08/09


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Dear Jesus,

Desperation plus hopelessness equals torture. I am empty of pride, ability, honor, joy and hope. I am full of shame, self-hatred, sadness, guilt and grief. How can a Christian experience this? Surely you will tell me that Iím sinning... If Iím doing it right, this should not be.

I wandered out into the snow, one desperate night... with no plans, except to drink a lot of wine and get away from life. Razor blade in hand, I stumbled into the woods, first objective met. And fell, crying into a heap under a tangle of vines. I called her number, and heard her telling me to stay awake.

Iíve been so blind. Somewhere in the snow, I lost my glasses. Iím intoxicated with a strangling despair and I just canít figure it out. Remember when we used to dance? Every breath I took was You. We glided high above the earth, untouchable... invincible. And now Iíve fallen, laid out on the cold ice fumbling for the blade.

Why?

Why, when I lived for You, have I found this death? Why, when Iím dying, do You keep me alive? I clawed for that blade! It was mine, in my hands! I opened it up and owned it, ready. And in pieces, in itty-bitty pieces, it crumbled to the ground, and was gone, just like that. You left me empty-handed and cold, sobbing into the night. An icy, hopeless night, long, until the white turned red and blue and the stretcher hugged my back.

Still I cry, full of shame, full of despair, and full of hope! And I cry out, I love You too!

Oh sweet Jesus, I love You too.


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David Story06/14/09
Powerful. Thank you for sharing.
Victoria Beatus06/14/09
This is intense. The description is creative... I like the part about the white turning red and blue. I'm glad the character and Jesus are still on speaking terms. Will you put out a sequel someday?
Rachel Lerch06/16/09
Thanks for the comments. I'm living the sequal Victoria.
Deborah Porter 06/19/09
Hi Rachel. I just wanted to leave a quick note to let you know your entry, Dear Jesus, Let Me Die, actually did very well in the Empty and Full Challenge. Although you didn't receive an award, you made it into the Highest Rankings for Level 1, placing 13th in that Level.

There were a lot of entries this week, and the competition is always intense in Level 1, so you deserve a pat on the back.

If you'd like to check the highest rankings for yourself, you can find them here:
http://www.faithwriters.com/Boards/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?t=25956

The highest rankings are posted every Thursday evening on the Message Boards.

Hope to see you at the FaithWriters' Conference in August. Itís going to be an amazing time of inspiration, information and encouragement. (If Iíve already mentioned that to you, forgive me. Weíre just so excited about letting members know about this great gathering.)
http://www.faithwriters.com/conference.php

With love, Deb (Challenge Coordinator)