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Topic: In and Out (04/30/09)
- TITLE: A kindred Spirit
By Robbin Morrell
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“You don’t have any friends because you don’t know how to be a friend!” She proclaimed.
All my insecurity from previous relationships bolstered in one cutting statement. It felt as if I’d been sacked by a linebacker; my feet knocked out from under me. I couldn’t breath, and my ears were ringing from the concussion. I had shared such a personal and painful story to now find myself on the floor.
At the time those words were spoken they broke my heart. Though you may not notice it right away now, I have a disability. As you can imagine it hindered my ability to make friends easily growing up. Being a people watcher I observed others interact; who’s friends with whom. I have envied friendships that stand the test of time. I’ve had good friends, but they seem to come in and out of my life.
It’s made me feel like there’s something wrong with me. Maybe I am not likeable or loveable. Perhaps my accuser was right? I don’t know how to be a friend. The personal and painful story was that my two best friends in high school cut me out for some inexplicable reason our senior year. They are still best friends 20 years later. It affected the way I approached relationships from that point forward.
I have wanted to find that kindred spirit that knows me in and out who would be my friend for life. But the reality is associations many times are only for a season. We are living and growing beings. With that comes change. We never really know where and what life is going to bring us. Even when we’re blessed to find those special people distance will at times separate us.
We are designed for relationship, some more than others. It is natural to desire a bond of trust with someone. Why then does it seem to escape me; always just beyond my reach? I know God loves me and wants His best for me. Wouldn’t He want to bless my life with a best friend forever?
How would my life change or have been different if….? Would I call my friend or would I call on God? Whose advice would I ask for and who’s would I listen too? It has been in those quiet and lonely times that I have been the most dependent on God. As much as I’ve wished there was someone to call my Bible is on the coffee table ready to speak to me. He’s ready to listen to everything I have to say and never interrupts in the middle of my sentence. I can trust him with my pain and know he won’t use it to hurt me later. The desire for human companionship persists because we are not meant to be alone. But when those disappoint me I have a friend in God.
If we are created in the image of God these feelings are not unique unto ourselves. Wouldn’t this too be the same experience of God Himself? He is our relational Creator who desires friendship with us. He calls but we do not answer. He wants to connect; for us to know him in and out. But we are busy and do not know his heart. God is ready to help in times of trouble, and we think we’re all alone.
God understands unmet longings. He remains still as the one friend that loves at all times.
He cleared my way to Him of detours. I no longer self-doubt about who I am and know I’m a great friend. What better reason for the enemy to wound that area of my life. Now I must step out in faith, and risk the possibility of being hurt so I might experience the joy.
A man who has friends must himself be friendly. But there is a friend that sticks closer than a brother. Proverbs 18:24 (NKJV)
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