TITLE: NOT SORRY I EXIST By Jide Oboise 06/05/08 |
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What can I say?
I see it, how can i help but notice the way your eyes bore daggers through me all day long,
Just because I exist.
Jealousy the green-eyed monster and that monster-king of destruction prejudice, have both taken permanent residence with and in you.
I see the way your tummy heaves in disgust because of me at,my occupation of space
You hate with a passion the fact that I just got that promotion, how I can cope with things you regard as in your domain, territory and field of specialty.
You cannot seem to understand how I can excel where you have thought it was ‘way beyond my CAPABILITIES’.
You scheme and scam without stop just to achieve that which you have spoken into my future, but whose report shall I believe?
DEFINITELY NOT YOURS!
You cannot stand the smile that is almost permanently etched on my features,
In your delusion, you wonder what the elixir to my joy is and assume that it is physical,
then you plan and scheme further, to snatch that also away
It seems to have dawned on you that even in all the storms and obstacles that you have so strategically placed all around me to hinder and to derail, I continue to stand!
Proud and tall I stand, with shoulders straight because I have the ace,
you can never fathom it’s form or shape until you come off that isolated pedestal that does no man no good.
You give me strange and hostile looks as I walk bye, probably hoping that I’d trip over or ‘better still’, be run over by a car you wish,The heart of man is desperately wicked, who can know it.
Tough luck,I won’t!.
You say nasty and untrue things about me to others(give a dog a bad name to hang it!), your nasty and rude jibes do not fall on deaf ears but I ignore on purpose and decide it’s not worth the response you expect from me.
You expect an apology or better still you wish upon wishes that you wake up one morning and find that I had vaporized off the face of planet Earth (once again, tough luck!)
Why are you so disturbed over who is what? You have lost your peace and sleep because you are on a race to prove what? All is falling to pieces around you and you can not seem to see because you are bent on pursuing a vendetta that you have embarked upon concerning me, while 'your'house is on fire!
Why do you base your assessments of achievements on the measures of the world’s standards, where moth and rust will eventually eat away, don’t you see, don’t you understand even in your supposed great knowledge?
What you see is vague and of little value compared to what you do not see?
What you know, I tell you is nothing compared to what you do not know!
You say I lie, because you have always regarded yourself (and others around you have also contributed to the GREAT DECEIT of your life) as one who is RENOWNED for high IQ.
Obscure, vague I say is that which is not anchored to the SOLID ROCK!
REMEMBER, 'TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL YOUR HEART, LEAN NOT ON YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING'.
I found that which you still fervently seek and search for, I found a precious gem, that which is worth more than money can ever value, I found the treasure of all treasures, I found my jewel of inestimable value.
I FOUND THE LORD! THE KING OF KINGS AND THE LORD OF LORDS
THE ONE WHO IS, WHO WAS, WHO FOREVER WILL BE
Man without the spirit of the Lord to guide him in ALL things becomes eventually like King Nebuchadnezzar-Daniel 4:33, The same hour was the thing fulfilled upon Nebuchadnezzar: and he was driven from men and did eat grass as oxen, and his body was wet with the dew of heaven, till his hairs were grown like eagles’ feathers, and his nails like birds’ claws.
A whole man and a king at that, turned into beast roaming around because of pride of life and pomposity.
I discovered that which benefits more, the secret of his word for me, the key is, I am wonderfully and beautifully made-THAT IS A FACT!
His thoughts for me are good not evil because he made me exactly like Him, in His image and in His likeness, to think and function with all the knowledge and abilities within me as a full creative being not as an animal that remains the same in it’s ways and habits (No improvement, no change) from the beginning to the time when my Lord shall return.
So you see why I cannot apologize because I have a reason for living, I have a hope and a future, I know whose I am; I know where my roots are attached and anchored.
I know where I am headed because of the one that lives in me.
WORD OF WISDOM:
There is still a hope for you, in Him alone can you have that which you continually seek, that which keeps you bound in restless despair and fear of your imaginations
Jesus alone can chip away the ugly pieces of this imperfect sculptured piece and bring out the masterpiece within, TRY HIM!
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