TITLE: Sleep, or Rather the Lack Thereof
By Edwina Cowgill
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It is 3AM on Sunday morning and I am, once again, wide awake. Why can’t I sleep? What is going on in my life, my head, my mind that prevents REM?
Thoughts dance through my mind like butterflies – barely lighting before moving on. Some thoughts move through my mind like turtles – slow, ponderous, heavy thoughts that weigh me down like quicksand.
Legs move and twitch – restless. Tossing and turning – no relaxing, comfortable spot to be found on a mattress that is “guaranteed” to make you sleep. HA! Mind flies – free-floating thoughts. Husband is in constant pain. Daughter –financial problems. Son – birthday today celebrated at Camp Pendleton thousands of miles away from home. Grandson – problems at school. Parents – growing more feeble and frail with every passing day.
How do I stop these thoughts in the early morning hours? Experts have suggested, “do this” or “don’t do that” but they don’t have my life. They don’t live inside my mind. Stress, anxiety, worry, concerns, fears. Where is the peace? Where is the sleep?
The sound of rain outside my window should bring peace and relaxation, lulling me to sleep. Rather it seems to add to the butterfly-moving thoughts flitting through my mind.
Where is the peace? Where is the sleep?
Suppose I name off these thoughts – these worries and anxieties – to God in prayer. Will that bring me sleep and peace? Why not try? Can’t hurt, can it?
"God, here are my worries and concerns:
Husband - in constant pain
Daughter - serious financial problems
Son - 24th birthday at Camp Pendleton
Grandson - problems in school
Parents - more feeble and frail every
Thoughts in the mind are like
to and fro.
Alighting from flower to flower
drinking sweet nectar
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