The things I have come to know , Father,
Against many of them
I am powerless.
Even though my strength fails me,
And my body grows weary from fighting these things,
My hearts hope never fails.
Some that don't believe in you
Think that I should be perfect
Because i believe in you.
For so long I've beat myself up because I'm not.
I want so badly, Father, to be right in Your eyes.
Part of me is fighting against myself and it's strong.
I'm having a hard time moving forward, FatherI'm having a hard time letting things go.
The enemy uses this against me,
They lie in wait, concerning themselves with what I do.
Save me from their traps, O Lord,
For You and You alone are my saving grace.
Time and time again you've proven Yourself to me,
And I spend a lot of days wondering
Whats wrong with me.
Surely You have Your purposes,
And I don't think I will ever understand it.
I like to believe that once I'm home,
My purpose will become known.
I've spent so many days being sad
Not having anyone to share my life with,
But that is so unfulfilling.
I coming to learn that You are the love of my life.
I'm sharing my life the best way I know how,
Right here with you and all others who read this.
I want my sharing to evolve into something more than just words.
I know, Father, when Your time is right,
You will propel me forward.
You give me hope in this life where despair runs abound.
You give me courage to get up and keep going
To face a life of negativity thats seems to surround me.
I want to walk away, but thats what I've always done.
Why should I leave?
I'm not going to let the enemy run me off.
Its time for the enemy to leave and be driven away.
Help me stand firm in You, Father.
Keep me in a constant state of humility.
There is where You are strongest,
And all who are around me can see,
Who the love of my life is.
Part of me wants to treat others the way they treat me,
It's getting stronger.
Please don't leave me, Father,
I don't want to lose the love I show to others.
I don't want to lose that blessing I've managed to hold on to.
I don't ever want to believe
That I'm winning, or ahead of everyone else.
I don't want to believe that I'm stronger than anyone else, or that I have more
Than this or that person.
That type of thinking leads me away from You.
Honestly, I'm not stronger, nor am I richer,
Nor am I ahead of anyone else.
You, Father, are so much more than any of these things.
I'm becoming content with You.
Please show Your mercy to us,
And move me when Your time is right.
I ask this in Jesus' name, Amen.
Holy, Holy, Holy, Lord God Almighty,
Who was and is and is to come.
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I too struggle with the emotions evoked in this poem.Always hoping to be more for Jesus worried and dismayed when I know that I'm not even close. Thank goodness we have a Lord that loves us unconditionaly and he never gives up on us he only asks that we try again in his strength, held by his love, pardoned by his grace. Keep writing it helps so many christians to know that were all in the same boat godbless