"Is there anyone here who like to confess theirs sins?" came the question.
I thought.
"I have not confessed before and here I am: I do not remember the message," I thought. "If I confess, I might work out the message and then I will have what is there (the body of Christ). Hmmm... (in the Devil) if I have what is there, I can use what is there for my own end."
"I will do it," I said and I said it allowing guilt to flood over me, as was shrewd (so that it would not have been for less than a thrill should it turn out to mean nothing). "I will do it," I said again, so that I could pretend I had actually said nothing (what? I did not mean it the second time!) "I will do it and then..." my thoughts began to trail off - I realized (in the Spirit) that I had to listen for what to do or I would never stop thinking about it.
"Pray with me this prayer..." said the speaker!
I prayed. Suddenly!: The old man rebelled!
"Aha! Now I have it!" I said, thinking I would have whatever it was I thought was there - and it was the body of Christ! _I had Christ_!
But the old man did not realize he had nothing "in the old man".
In a flash, I was _in_ Christ!
"Give it to me!" I said, in the old man.
"What?" said Christ.
"That!"
"The body of Christ?"
"Do I want that?" I thought.
"No!" I said, in the Devil.
"What?" said Christ.
"That!"
"The Spirit?" said Christ.
"Do I want that?" I thought.
"No!" I said, in the Spirit.
"What?" said Christ.
"That!"
"Me?" said Christ.
"Yes!" I said. "There! You!" and I kept myself from saying "Now!" as I had learned in that moment you could get more by being insistent and I did not want anyone to steal being insistent from me, so I restrained myself to justify complaining if anyone did.
THEN Whammo! It hit me...
...I just learned something in _the Spirit_!
It had nothing to do with the old man... nothing to do with the Devil... nothing to do with what I thought of the Spirit.
I had been... forgiven.
My sin was... no more.
Then God spoke through me:
"As I thought I would use the body of Christ for a pawn, so also now I will use myself as a _pawn_," and so it was that I was in Christ in God, prepared to use myself as a pawn.
And I realized what I had said and I turned to God, saying "How is it that I will use myself as a pawn?"
And God was silent.
And Christ was nowhere.
And there were just the things I had struggled with before I believed.
Then I thought "I must keep myself from these things if I am to get Christ back (and to have God speak to me). I must keep myself from the old man, I must keep myself from the Devil and I must keep myself... _from the world_ (which was everything but Christ, as I could _see_)!"
This was what I decided when I had learned something in the Spirit.
So it is: _remember what you learn when you believe_!
So also: _remember what you decide because you have learned_!
From this it follows that we should: _remember these two things, as Christ remembers them_!
And so it is that I have learned from glorifying Christ in this, that a child turning to God was remembered...
..._and so I will learn_!!
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