'Lord be my eyes!' I cried it out whenever I have this fear of hopelessness in the future. Because I felt like I lived a routinary kind of life wherein I woke up in the dusk to work and in the dawn I am in my slumber.
My eyes showed me that it seemed like I am living like a dead. Living like a robot. When the truth is God is just preparing a new challenging life for me.
So here I go stubborn again on things like these. I self-pity because I cannot manage my time and my health is getting morbid. My high school friends and other friends who sees me told me that I am in a poor health condition, not because they're used of seeing me fat before but because it is true. I lose 10 kilogram since the day they'd seen me. And the joy, the smile, the jolly face was gone. So I hurried up to make a solution of my own forgetting that He is my God who is in control of everything.
I have this thought that even if I sleep it will wave at me in my dreams. It makes me uncomfortable and my tiring self did not induce me to sleep anymore. So wheter I slept or not I am seeing this problem, it really annoys me and distracted me. It made me feel so upset to anyone my eyes first caught up with. And when I started to get upset it is heating me up leading us to a heated conversation. And it pressed me down feeling not so good about it.
I found one solution to this problem. But I did not pursue because it will lead to a water pipe lie. And another option came in..
While doing my own way, He put me in a situation wherein I realized as if it's a big slap on my face that He is God. That time I feel so guilty and told myself that I am a rebel. And it made me go farther away from Him, feeling that I am doing the things that He didn't expected me to do. But He made a way to restore me again.
And I am thankful because He did wonderful things after the difficulties I am experiencing before. He became my eyes. Showing that He have His plan.. that it is just me who could not wait and who don't lend my ears to listen.
Well, this realization put me back in place. I am thankful and giving my praise to my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ for He really saves in all situation even if we didn't ask it.
If you died today, are you absolutely certain that you would go to heaven? You can be! TRUST JESUS NOW