No one knows exactly how fragile the heart is. Some of us can have our hearts broken a hundred times and still keep going. Others only go through one love in a life time, and when that loved one dies or moves on-that person can't. Sometimes, we just can't move on-despite ourselves. The last time my heart was shattered was nearly two years ago. I have grown to like my place of solitude. I have become what some folks might say,"comfortably numb". I think Pink Floyd described this quite adequately.
Some friends of mine think I am in a sad place, but really I'm not. Some even argue that my life of solitude is unhealthy. Why? Because I choose stay alone in my protected shell? Let me be the first to inform each and everyone who is reading my little ditty, I have chosen to stay guarded behind these castle walls. I have fought many battles and slayed many dragons. I won most of these battles, but I am tired now. Sometimes it's best to retreat and rest.
I am resting now, and I am at peace. I do not need to look for Mr. Right anymore. I do not need to be in a whirlwind romance. I find no comfort in answering to someones desires. Mine were infrequently met. I am a princess of a different sort. I have all the royalties a girl could ask for! I am happy, joyous, and free-and I am living a full life! So...while I sit and listen to all my friends complain about their unfulfilling marriages and burnt out relationships; I sit and eat ice
cream while reading a book as silence fills every room of my house(When my 10 year old son is in school that is!l). I can have as many pets in my house as I want. I can watch what I want on TV, and I can come and go as I please. There are no captives here-only me...and I am free! So, while some of you may wonder what being comfortably numb is like-for me it has been true freedom for the first time in my life!
For you shall know the truth~and the truth shall set you free