Dear Heavenly Father, how weak and inadequate I often feel when contemplating the vast responsibility I have of representing you upon this earth. Let the meditations and contemplations of my heart be more acceptable in your sight. I know that I am but clay and that you desire to mold and shape me into the form you have ordained for me before the foundation of this world.
Do not be angry with me Heavenly Father when the clay stiffens in your hands. Form me into your image Lord Jesus and make me in your likeness. I am far, far, far from this point right now in my life. However, you said that you would complete this good work in me and you will finish it. The deeper I go into your word the more inadequate I see myself in the light of your countenance. As you conform my mind into your will and away from this world do not be angry Heavenly Father when I take steps back away from your plan and purpose for my life.
Your will is my desire and to obtain your heart is my goal but Oh how far I appear to be from that as far as the East is from the West. I groan in my tent for my complete and total redemption and I mourn over all of my inadequacies but I run to your throne of grace and find a safe haven continually. Be not far from your son as he sojourns down here is this foreign land but strengthen me with might by your Spirit in my inner man (the real me) and enable me to see your splendor and majesty.
Heavenly Father, do not be angry when I grieve you with my rebellion for you already know my thoughts a far off. How you have made this world so foreign to your son and he desires that your Kingdom come right now, but with my words, I sometimes deny that fact. Do not be angry Heavenly Father that you have to wash my mouth out as if with a launderers soap because of my complaining.
Heavenly Father, do not be angry with me when I appear to forget that you are the source of my physical and spiritual blessings. I want never to be dependent on any human being. It is the earth that is yours and the fullness thereof, Oh how utterly foolish I can be when I lose sight of this reality Heavenly Father.
Heavenly Father, do not be angry with me when I ask you to search and try my heart and you find something wanting and I do not immediately confess it to you and forsake it in my heart and life. You are pure and Holy and you command me to be as you are Holy and only you can do this for me Lord Jesus.
Do not be angry with me Lord Jesus for the frequent times that you must make intercession for me for I am still but clay in your strong and mighty hands. Heavenly Father, do not be angry with me when I clearly here your voice and I make excuses or rationalize or do other things before being obedient to you.
Heavenly Father, do not be angry with me when laziness crops in and I do not want to pray or read your Word. I desire to eat physical food everyday. Let my desire for your Word far exceed my desire for my necessary meat. Heavenly Father, do not be angry with me when I let opportunities (that you create) to witness your gospel to lost sinners go by the waste side as I get caught up in my writing and forget souls dying without your grace.
Heavenly Father, what is my flesh but grass my heart is what you desire along with the tent. Heavenly Father, do not be angry with me when I allow my circumstances to dictate what flows from my heart. Whether I have plenty or nothing let me rejoice in you always and again rejoice.
Sincerely in Christ,
Clifford D. Tate, Sr.
Author, Silent Assassins of the Soul (not yet published; coming soon)