I awaken in the dark of an early morning. I look at the red digital clock read out. 4:47 AM, 4:47 AM the clock mocks me. Only 57 minutes until the alarm goes off and you have to go to work! Oh yeah, I get up and reset the clock for 6:00 am. How do you like me now I sputter under my breath?
Climbing back into bed my head hits the pillow, but the peace and serenity of the nights sleep is gone. I toss and turn for another 13 minutes and finally give in. It is time to get up and go to work.
Grabbing my cream bath towel from the rack in the bedroom, I creep across the hall to the bathroom. I squirt the Gillette series gel with aloe vera on my hand. I lather up around my beard and mustache. If you look at the 7-ounce can, it says it is “peau sensitive. “ What does that mean? It sounds French…. Seizing my plastic doubled bladed razor (a single blade just won‘t do), I quickly clear off 4 days worth of rubble.
I brush my teeth with my cosmic electric toothbrush, shower and am looking neatly groomed as I head for the bedroom. I am not a person who takes a lot of time to get ready as I value my sleep immensely. Usually I can have the routine done in 20 minutes, including my first morning prayer and I am out the door.
Today I am taking a little more time, as I have not went into work for the last couple of days. I put on my pants and reach for my company logo shirt. You know the kind, polo with your company name on the right breastplate and your first name stitched in cursive on the left. Do I wear my work uniform? I always get dressed in my work uniform, why the hesitation? For perspective, I have long thought about leaving my job and making a go at it as a writer. I have been with the company for over five years and in the industry for 15+ years.
I do other things as well, like coaching High School sports, for those of you who are concerned about my writing. Ha Ha! Let me give you some history.
A little over a year ago, maybe longer I had become questioning my commitment on what I want to do for the rest of my life. I knew I did not want to stand on the dock and launch drivers for another 20 years until retirement. I told myself then I would leave my job Oct 1 2008. So what could I do and or what do I love to do?
This is a very perplexing question. Think about it. What do you love to do? Now what do you love to do that you can make a living at? For me I knew part of the answer. I wanted to coach High School athletics and move up to the Varsity level.
My current job had always allowed me to start early and get off early so I could make my commitment to the kids and the team. For that, I will always be grateful. This worked out fine for the freshman level of sports and I just completed the football season last week.
However, over the last 3 months I have received an offer to coach at the varsity level of Baseball. This will be a much bigger commitment then the one I have had previously. To complicate the issue the springtime is our busiest time of year where we work horrendous hours. I believe in hard work and giving your all every time to the best of your ability. That being said I also know that a person that has too much on his plate can only eat half a meal.
This became clear to me on Friday nights during the football season. My day would start at 4:30 am, leave work at three, and play first game at 4:15, race to the varsity field by 7:00 pm for a game that would last until about 9:30 pm. I was brain dead and ineffective by 8:00-8:30 pm. This is not going to work.
My work shirt is on and I offer my prayers to the Lord. I grab my dole banana, trying to drop a few pounds and eat healthier (Not working yet.) Pour a big glass of diet Mountain Dew and head for the car.
The garage door opener is not working today and I have to let myself out by pushing the button, driving the car out then running back in to shut the double size door.
I get it my car and it hits me again. “What are you doing?” Well I am going to a job I hate everyday because I have too! “Why?” Because, I have to pay the bills, take care of my wife. Feed the dogs. Live…. “Come to Church this morning, pray.” I found my 99 Chevy Prism heading down the boulevard to Eucharistic Adoration and then the 6:30 am mass.
I prayed, I asked, I wondered. The message seems to be the same.
I arrived back at the front of my house at 7:00 am and called my boss, knowing quite well he would not be in. I left him a message telling him I would get back to him today.
We are all meant to do certain things in life, duties that our Holy Father wills us to do. Discerning what is the will of the God is a difficult thing. As a Catholic, we have a process for discernment when picking lay leaders of the church. I went through that process last year. I came up with an answer that surprised me. I was to help lead our youth and Coach Athletics. I was not to be a leader of the church for now.
"For as in one body we have many parts, and all the parts do not have the same function, so we, though many, are one body in Christ and individually parts of one another" (Rom 12:4-5).
Remember Christ is the head and we are all parts of the body. We all have a function and responsibility in life to fulfill the will of the Father. It is not always easy to figure out what. Sometimes as in my case at this moment, it is clear what it is not. I must start down a new path in life.
Pray that I may follow the path God wills for me! Thank you and God Bless!
If you died today, are you absolutely certain that you would go to heaven? You can be! TRUST JESUS NOW
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Give yourselves to the service of the Lord, and decide to obey him -Jeremiah 3:4. Anything that returns to dust after it died is not God. Anything that returns to dust after it is destroyed is not God. Man (human beings) and animals return to dust after they die. Idols or statues return to dust after they are destroyed. But in this world human beings are worshipping idols, animals, man, sun, moon, nature etc. At the depth of Wisdom of God, one will find the truth. I am not condemning, but catholics are worshipping statue of Mary. Mary died and her flesh returned to dust. When she died, her spirit and soul was not able to save her dead flesh from being eaten by the worms in the grave, how can she be worshipped as god? Her body rot in the grave, how can she be worshipped as god? She was just a human being whom God chose to be His vessel and servant. When the true Word of God, Lord Jesus Christ was born of the Holy Spirit died on the cross, he rose on the third day and lives forever and ever. The Holy One was not eaten by the worms and His body did not rot in the grave. Lord Jesus is Christ. Lord Jesus is God. Man should not worship idols. God created heaven and earth, man, animals and etc. But man does not create God. Man does not have the right or power to make the Creator. Man should not even hand-make statue of Lord Jesus to worship. It is idolatry. Are you in the right house of the Lord? God Bless!