Recently, a man drove over 2 hours to take measurements for a new kitchen countertop in our home. Since I am a firm believer in Divine Appointments - something I ask for in prayer each day - I couldn't help but wonder if this man wasn't "it" for me that day (it wasn’t; there were two others as it turned out later). I found the countertop man to be quite personable and very talkative. He asked me what I did for a living. He seemed intrigued to learn that I was a Workplace Chaplain. After retrieving something from his truck, he seemed emboldened. With a big sigh, he spoke, "Ok...you're a minister, right? Well, I need to talk to you..." He made no eye contact but continued working as he spoke. "My wife is an angel," he said, choking back some tears. "I'm mad at God because he put a disease on her...it's called ankylosing..."
I interrupted him, "Ankylosing Spondylitis...?"
He was surprised, "Yes! You've heard of it? I've never met anybody who’s heard of it."
I told him he was only the third person I'd ever met who had heard of that incurable disease. I began to share how I was diagnosed with "A.S." at age 28 and was healed in 2001 after being forced to quit my job due to an increasing inability to function and was forced to move to Stephenville to get closer to my kids.
When he asked what meds I took to get better, the door was open to speak to him about God's merciful healing power. We shared about the constant low-grade fevers, the sleepless nights due to pain, the inability to lie down on our stomachs, spending hours trying to get comfortable. His wife was diagnosed just last December. She had to quit her job which cut their $100,000 income in half. Our conversation went from Divine healing to church to sin...we covered it all and prayed together before he left. He called his wife from his truck after he drove away and, about 30 minutes later, she called me. She sounded very tired but we talked nearly an hour and I left her with healing prayer and an invitation to call me any time.
There are two things I've heard quite often over the years: (1) I'm mad at God and (2) something I hear myself frequently saying to others, "God's not mad at you."
The first time I ever heard someone confess their anger toward God, I was working late cleaning office buildings with a crew. As we headed toward the parking lot, one big man who knew I was a Christian, asked if we could talk. His eyes welled-up with tears as he told me of how, just the night before, he went outdoors and shouted toward the Heavens, "I HATE YOU!" I smiled and called to his attention to the fact that we don't get mad at someone who's not real to us. He seemed to appreciate hearing that. I said the same thing to my countertop friend the other day. He reacted the same way.
If you're mad at God, it's Ok. He's great enough to take it. After all, what parent gets defensive when a baby cries in anger toward them? God is no different. But make sure you place blame where it REALLY goes. It's Satan who tries to kill, steal and destroy. It's Satan who roams about like a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour. It's Satan who intends only evil for your life, who wants you to become the most impotent Christian you can be.
On the other hand, Father God has a plan for your life - a plan for good and not evil. Father God offers you forgiveness, love, grace and mercy - a chance to start over with a clean slate DAILY. Father God allowed the Holy Spirit to lead Jesus into the wilderness so that he could be tested by the devil. If Jesus, why not us, too? After all, don't we need to know what kind of stuff we're made of? We love the testimonies but seem to hate the tests. The tests must come to everybody -- every marriage, every family, every church, every business. The junk MUST be exposed and burned away.
Don't worry; if you fail a test, He will let you take it again and again until you pass! Been married numerous times? You're not bad. You just don't test well. Anyone who chooses to marry again should stop looking for their next partner and should start becoming what they desire to marry.
Failed businesses? Don't try again UNTIL you've taken some business courses, found a CPA and even a lawyer you can work with. The definition of insanity is doing the exact same thing over and over while expecting different results.
Is God mad at you? Perish the notion! He LOVES you...He's crazy about you. Here's proof:
John 3:16, (NLT) "“For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life."
1 John 1:9 (NIV), "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness."
Romans 5:5 (NIV), "hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."
1 Peter 5:7 (NLT), "Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you."
Need more evidence? Did you wake up with a pulse? Did you rise out of bed in a free nation like the USA? What did you have to do with any of those things? God has a plan for your life. He has ordered your steps. Others need to experience Him through YOU. Pray for and expect those Divine appointments in your own life. Regardless of your physical, spiritual, emotional, or financial condition, all the Lord needs is a willing heart and, suddenly, the mundane will become miraculous.
No, God isn't mad at you; He's mad ABOUT you!
Are YOU still mad at HIM?
A servant of God