I'm worried that I won't be able to hear my own eulogy when it's my turn to leave the great big swimming pool of life. OK, I admit it, I have a big ego. I will wonder what will be said of me. Are there any contradicitions in my life that I'm not seeing?
Funerals are funny events anyway. You could be the worst human ever to walk the planet, and still some one will say something nice at your send off. Or just the opposite; be will liked by every one and no one can even come up with something to say. I guess because everyone's in shock. But what if the Lord will let you hear what is said about you at the end of your life that may not have been said to your face while you were alive? What will your friends at work say to your friends at...oh say...church? Will it be like a wedding where both families end up fighting? You hear about these types of stories every so often. Something is said to one of the guests, usually to the mother-in-law, and chairs end up flying across the hall. Sort of like a Jerry Springer Holiday show - and don't say you never seen the show; you stop and watch a car wreck don't you!?
What will happen if the many lives we lead come crashing in on us, all showing up at the same place? Like a young ladies' man who sets up three dates on the same night, same time, same place. I have often said the Lord has a ironic sense of humor, because many times the lesson learned is out of irony.
Are we putting on different faces to different people and situations? Situational ethics I think it is called. I tell you something that you want to hear. I tell some one else in the same predicament something different. Why? I'm a nice person, that's why. I don't want to offend you by telling you the truth, because the truth might hurt you, and you might not like me anymore. So when in doubt, LIE! I realize that my friends who read this now will probably be wondering , am I telling you the truth? Ask me a question and I will tell you the truth by responding heart to heart, or face to face.
But what will you be remembered for? Will there be anything in your life that you'll be ashamed of, if it was ever found out before your death? If you are a Godly person, not pious, but Godly; that is to say, when you leave the room, will people remember Christ's love that was left behind for them? Or will they think, "What a Jerk!"? Don't get me wrong, sometimes a jerk and a Godly person are one in the same; for example, the prophet, Jeremiah. He was known as the weeping prophet. He pronounced the LORD'S judgement on Israel. Talk about a major party pooper. But coming to Jeremiah's defense, he was only doing what the LORD instructed him to; it was Israel that flaunted sin in the LORD's face. But you knew when Jeremiah showed up, he wasn't going to sugar coat God's message. He could care less about offending society, because his love for the LORD was great.
I admit that we do live different lives and that these lives do sometimes touch. But do these lives reflect Christ? Sadly, I must admit some of my lives don't. But this is not comic relief-know your audience; this is living your faith. Most of the men I work with know that I'm a "religious" man. I don't like that term. Most of the things I do are not to make brownie points with God, because I can't, but rather to show love for my Papa, because He first loved me. That's got to be the bottom line in this relationship - not that it's going to put me on an hierarchy in Heaven, to tell you about Christ's act of love for us, (this is not Amway), but to demonstrate His love by living in faith in all things.
I close with this, the late Dr. Walter Martin once said, "You and I must accept the occupational habits that come with the Christian witness...get in close with the word of God whatever it takes; no matter how much punishment you have to endure, no matter what they have to say about you. Get in close until you have the one clean shot that will take anybody out; for it is God's shot and God's Gospel". Sometimes we may have to be a jerk. Sometimes we have to be patient and wait for that one opening. As ole' Doc Martin says, it's God's shot and God's Gospel. From this day forward may all my lives reflect it.
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