That’s no typo on my name above. It’s a manifestation of the p…p…panic attack that I’m in the midst of. At least I assume it’s a p…p…panic attack…I’ve never had one before, but I’ve also never awakened up from such a horrible, frightening dream like I just did either.
I choose this particular title for two reasons. Number one was to get your attention, which apparently worked. Number two was to let you know that there is nothing to critique in my story. In my present condition spelling and grammar are non-issues. I am also not writing this to impress or compete with anyone. My purpose is that after much prayer my heart is still pounding a mile a minute and it’s too early to get either my doctor or my therapist on the phone.
“What is wrong with this brother”? You ask. “Has his faith failed him, has he gone off the deep end? Why is he bothering us here at FaithWriters with his issues? Why doesn’t he call 911, or his pastor”?
The reason friends is because they would all think I was crazy, unlike the reaction you must be having of deep concern for the brother and undying devotion to a fellow writer. Ok, so you don’t understand…listen up, please.
In my dark dream I awoke as usual, got my coffee, took the dogs out and sat down at my computer to check my e-mail and attempt to wake up. Upon checking my mail I discovered that one of my fellow FW 500 friends had submitted a new article titled, “Keep FaithWriters Alive Drive.” Anxiously, hesitantly and curiously I clicked on the link to read her submission. I hadn’t been on the site recently due to excess busy-ness and my habit of spending as much time outdoors as I possibly can this time of year.
I began to read my friend’s article written in her standard style of excellence and articulate expression in words. S…S…suddenly my screen went blank and the message…”This Site No Longer Available.” The lump that formed in my throat nearly choked off my entire air supply. My heart raced like the time, years ago, I had received an Adrenaline shot as a result of a poisonous spider bite. I felt like Job must have felt when everything that mattered to him was taken away as the Lord allowed it.
In a twinkling of an eye I realized that although I still had my God, family, friends and worldly possessions, my lifeblood had entirely drained from my body. Frantically I rebooted my computer, reset my modem, and checked all the wiring and all the other things they recommend when you have a computer problem. Everything worked fine until I tried to log on to FaithWriters. Hoping that something had simply malfunctioned with my automatic bill pay system I called the FW main office to straighten out the situation.
“This phone line is no longer connected…there is no forwarding number available.” My throat closed even tighter and I finally lost consciousness. That’s when I felt the gentle pawing of our Shih-Tsu Bailey, with his, “time to get up dad, routine.” I nearly tripped over the poor little fella in my panic attempt to get to my computer. As my e-mail booted up I shuttered in fear…there on the screen was a message that Chrissy Siggee had submitted a new article to FaithWriters.com. Now my heart really started to race. I clicked on the link expecting the worse case scenario.
My breath returned to me when the FW website opened up and there was my friend’s article. It seems that in my recent absence from the site a drive had begun to make the FW 500 into the FW 1000 in an attempt to help with the cost of operating the site. People were writing testimonies to help spread the word. Praise God that I was only dreaming...and I repeat for emphasis…PRAISE GOD THAT I WAS ONLY DREAMING…
I have been on Social Security Disability since May 2008. I have been a member, by the Lord’s design, of The FaithWriters 500 for about a year and a half now. Although I have not taken advantage of many of the benefits available to me I take great joy and relief just knowing they are there when I need them and make the time to profit from them.
The loving Christian relationships that the Lord has provided for me through the Ministry of FaithWriters and FW 500 would already take me an eternity to express in words. I can only imagine what He will do with 1,000 or 10,000 members.
Being on a fixed income the Lord has provided the finances for me to remain a member of this Blessed group. I’m sure, if increases in dues were ever necessary, He would continue to make the cost affordable to me. However, the proposed plan to increase membership will bring added blessing to our current members and to those joining us.
I declare to you all friends and family; like the, “plan of salvation,” will change peoples hearts, being a part of this God given organization will change the hearts of those called to write for whatever reason, but especially to and for The Family of God.
Well, my friend, you have hit the nail on the head - again. Dave and I met through FaithWriters and have become very dear friends. FaithWriters has expanded my writings into areas I never even dreamed of (unlike Dave's dreams which he shares with me on occassion).
What a blessing to have found FaithWriters.
May I mention an aspect to FW other than writing (and making new friends)? I recently had a shot gun accident. My wife called Dave in New Jersey and he placed a prayer request through the Message Board on FW's - the first person who responded was from Australia and a couple weeks later I got an e-mail from someone in Bangladesh. All over the world people were praying for my wife and I. Thank you FaithWriters!