I thought that out everyone I told, about what happened to me , the one I lived with would understand. As a matter of fact, he was the first one I ran to! After running so fast, out of breath and anxious about dropping the vessel. Because I could not hold on to it and what was given unto me by The One Who knew all about me!
I brought news to him that he was not ready to receive. Because the person who left earlier that day was not the same person that returned..and he SAW nothing in my hands. As, if revelation and truth is not what was expected of me.
But He Who spoke to me, SAW ME..
And I changed, transformed by the very Presence of Him. He brought forth out of me what I never realized was there. He knew my worth and honored me, a woman , who is not acquainted with such an act of LOVE.
Nobody really understands that since that day..I've changed. But I thought the one I lived with would believe. Others went down to see the One Who I spoke of, and came back and testified that I spoke the truth about TRUTH HIMSELF!
I did not expect anyone to just take my word for it. I admonished them to GO..AND SEE!!!
I no longer live with another. I still see the one I lived with, who turns his face from me as I approach. As if he can not bear to see me in a new light, for it was more comfortable for us in the dark. I pray for him and believe that he will receive the Living Water that I now drink of.
I thought that he would GO AND SEE..for himself.
Now I pray that he sees WHO I SAW.. in me.
I am not ashamed anymore..
FOR I AM CHANGED!!!!
Heart wrenching and heart grabbing at the same moment. Ecstasy in your new love, and tragic results with the old. It is very difficult to turn our hearts aside from the old and give them to our Lord because we can be selfish - you wrote this beautifully...