The palace he grew up in was one of a kind. He had the best clothes and the best of everything that anyone could possibly dream of at that time. But that didn’t change how he felt inside. He was adopted at a very young age, and the whole process of it had been quite controversial.
Moses was the son of a Hebrew slave, in a time where all other Hebrew babies were murdered by Pharaoh. He was the ‘lucky one’ because instead of being murdered like all the other Hebrew babies, he was adopted by one of Pharaoh’s daughters and was living in Pharaoh’s palace, with Hebrew slaves of his own.
Still, in spite of his incredible background, Moses was a sad man. He had a problem that no one could help with. He wasn’t Egyptian, not by blood and not by heart. Every time he stood before Pharaoh, he could almost hear people thinking: ‘You’re not one of us’ and ‘Who do you think you are?’
But on the other hand, he wasn’t Hebrew either! If he were, he’d be with the slaves making bricks and suffering at the rod of their Egyptian masters. Moses carried this identity crisis for a lifetime. Who was he after all?
The same struggle goes through the minds of many young people who have been brought up in church. They’re never happy, never satisfied, never quite there yet. Although their parents tell them of the great experiences they’ve had with God, they can’t relate to Him in that same faith. And so they live not knowing what to do.
For a while, they fail their parents’ expectations by turning away from most of their teachings, and trying to get a taste of what the world has to offer. It looks fun, interesting, attractive and captivating so why not? Everybody does it! Besides, they’re tired of doing what they don’t feel like doing and having to please their parents all the time. People in the world don’t have to do that, they’re so free and so in charge of their own lives. They’re the ones who have fun…
After a while, they realise the world is not that fun. They know that they don’t belong there, but again, they don’t belong in church either—not after everything they’ve done with their life.
And so they get to the same point Moses did when he made a terrible mistake and fled for his life. He then lived in a shadow for 40 years, hiding from everyone he knew, trying to escape all the right questions: who was he anyhow?
When he thought life would never give him a second chance, God revealed Himself to Moses in the burning bush. He didn’t think he was worthy. He felt awkward, a little out of place, quite a loser actually, but God was sure about him, and that was something he had never felt all his life.
At first, Moses tried to show God why he was the wrong person to count on. He talked about all his insecurities and yet God was still sure. He then slowly gave in to God’s will and, from an insecure guy, Moses turned into a powerful leader.
God wants to do the same to you. If you grew up in church or not, you’re here, you’re reading this, and you’re being called. Stop thinking you’re not worthy, I’m not! Stop thinking you can’t, I can’t either; but I believe that God can!
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