At some point in my life I thought I was in control. I was the conductor, the train, and the track. I didn't need help. I knew what was best and the best things I could do were all for me. One day, after not sleeping or eating. I was suffering from loneliness, crying, walking in depression. I became a prisoner in my own mind. I cried out for the one thing most people don't want. I had to ask for it and that was help.
I could not see the day that I was in let alone the days to come. My dreams became unobtainable and out of reach. Who am I. The train had jumped the tracks and careened into a deep pit. The conductor, train, and supplies were lost in a dark valley. I blew the horn for friends and family, but because I always left the station on a mission that didn't include others; no one was there to hear me. But when I cried from the place inside. Oh my! I have a heart! God answered me.
On this dark night in the deep valley of my mind I cried for light. I cried from pain. I wanted, desired, and longed to be rescued and submitted to the help, healing, love, and lifting. When at the bottom of a pit there is nowhere to look but up. If you are in darkness a sliver of light will draw you to it. Light is a commanding force. When light is present darkness is held at bay.
Since I gave my life to the Lord I have been refitted, placed on his tracks and yes, I am still the conductor because of CHOICE and free will. However, I am being used by my employer the source of my purpose to carry a load on His tracks to whatever destination He leads. I had to make a choice to yield, accept, and commit. I had to CHOOSE to call on Him and let God do what no one could do, save me.
With that commitment I signed up to be USED, not as before but with Holy purpose. Do you walk in your assigned purpose? We write lovely poems and stories and skits and post them on Faith Writers but do you share them at home with friends, family and strangers. Do you share that occasion when you realized you were off track and God rescued you. I pray that God will take me further than I can go but where He wants me to be. I pray to accomplish things far beyond my thinking and personal confidence. I pray that he will forever use me.
This is my story of love to the God who loved me the most.
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It's good to see you writing after a long break; I like the imagery of the train and the track, and getting to rock bottom in order to really cry for help. A little more punctuation in the first paragraph would help in my opinion. Good article.